Hello! I will leave my story here, and you can tear me up, calm me down, etc. in the comments below. I have been married recently, we still don't have a child. It happens very often to think about the ex, with whom we have not heard or seen for years. No contact with him, but it happens as everything is fine man, family and bam some thoughts about the ex. We didn't have a normal relationship, I call him an ex because there was love on both sides. Our relationship lasted 5 years. We saw each other only for sex, but for 5 years there can be no feelings. I didn't feel when the great love happened, but due to many complexes and insecurity on my part, I didn't admit my feelings to him ... He was looking for me a lot, not only for sex, he wanted to go out with his friends, etc. But thoughts like I'm not good and beautiful for him did not give me peace. That's how I stayed away. During these 5 years we have hurt each other, driven, but also loved in some way. I was madly in love with him. The relationship ended badly. I realized that he has a new girlfriend (understandably, he will not wait another 10 years for me). Although he was with her, he had written to me shortly before we quarreled ... And suddenly his girlfriend started writing to me and blocked me from everywhere. Nothing since then. I can't describe how hard it was for me. I came across pills, panic attacks, and so on. After a while, I met my current husband. I dare say that we are happy, we have the problems of every married couple, but I can't explain why my ex is in my head. To avoid reproaches that I am married, and I think of another, I repeat that I have no contact with my ex, I do not want to have because it is not fair to my husband. I'm trying to fend off thoughts of him, but alas ..
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Now, we are human and we are not perfect. But that sucks, it's just disgusting!