Hello readers. I am a 23 year old man and my story is as follows. All my life I've been under stress, be it from my parents, classmates, friends, etc. But last summer I started not feeling well, I started asking myself questions that I never did, I wasn't the one who knew that I am, I wondered where I was, etc. I visited a psychiatrist. He prescribed me antidepressants, which I took for about 2 months, after which I stopped. There was a period after that for about a month in which I felt better ... but then the same thing happened. This time I visited a psychologist, she prescribed me other antidepressants, I drank them for about 3 months, after I stopped taking them I gradually became very nervous, I started to envy people, even my friends, that they have girlfriends, they have love. and I don't, and I wanted so much. I was furious, I started to feel sorry for myself, I got angrier, and to top it all off, a nasty vertigo torments me. About a month ago I decided to visit a neurologist, but he told me I wasn't there and sent me back to a psychiatrist. This time she was a woman and she prescribed me some sedatives, which as soon as I drank I fell asleep abruptly and I couldn't even go to the toilet. Now he told me to drink them for another month, he even doubled my dose. People I can't stand, I want to have a girlfriend, I couldn't finish my higher education, I'm really nervous and angry, I constantly criticize myself and when I see someone with a girlfriend I start to envy and hate him. Until recently, I had a girl with whom we had an intimate relationship, but she left me, I was tired, and when I have a woman next to me, I am calmer. And this nasty vertigo torments me to the limit, my self-esteem collapsed, I began to hate everything, even my parents. No, I don't want motherly love, and the other the real one. Please help, I'm going crazy !!!
1 temperleylondon answered
Follow the thoughts that come to you .. They are the root of your every action ... I must tell you that I understand you perfectly ... I was just like you .... everything is in your head ... try to look at yourself from the sides and you will see that things are not as bad as you imagined ... In order to overcome this fear or anger that you have, you must first oppose it .... Imagine that your greatest fear has come true ... create the worst case scenario you can .... And then say "so what"? On the one hand, the very fear that you are not well mentally also interferes .... First of all, you should have a high rating for yourself ... then others will have one for you .... I personally meditated ... so I got rid of envy ... do it too ... Distract yourself constantly with something ... suggest to yourself that everything is fine ... and in the end it will happen