Hi, I'm an 18 year old girl. It all started 3 years ago. I met a girl and as cliché as it sounds, I fell in love at first sight. I didn't tell anyone, but it was new to me, too, and she had a boyfriend. We started going out and became pretty good friends, and one day she told me that she broke up with the boy in question because he was going to another city. A month passed and I decided to tell her how I felt, when she realized she told me that there could be nothing like that between us and everything was covered up. It was difficult for me to hide my feelings, so I began to withdraw from her. She rang, I either didn't pick up or made excuses, but one night she insisted we go out. We went out, talked and it was time to leave, she reached out to kiss me but I pulled away because I think it's a trick. I went home and she wrote me the following "When you wanted to kiss me I didn't want to, and now when I want you you don't want to, right?". I was shocked by this, I was happy and I felt pretty good. The next night we went out again, but this time when I sent her away, I kissed her. The next day she didn't know what we were like for a month and a half ... One day she came and told me that there was another one and that she had been with him for 1 week, but she didn't know how to tell me and of course I left. I didn't pick up the phone, I didn't go out, I didn't talk to anyone, I was generally depressed. I don't know how it happened, but for a moment I felt dizzy and by the time I realized I was with her again, but she was with me and him for a year. One day he came and told me I was no longer with him and I naturally used the moment to ask her if she wanted to be with me, and she answered yes. We were together for 3 months, after which I had to leave Bulgaria for a while, but it was only for a month. But on the third day when I was not in Bulgaria, she told me that she wanted us to separate and I went crazy as before. She had dumped me for a boxer, then she was with the first boy she was with when we met, then with the second boy, and so she turned the same boys around several times. When I returned to Bulgaria, she saw me and called me to her, cried and said that I was missing and kissed me .. But I stayed with the last one, I realized that she slept with him .. We did not talk for a year and we didn't see each other, and she called me and cried on the phone, telling me that these two boys were cursing and killing her. I went to her and reassured her, but the next day she was with a boy again. After 4 months he dumped him and called me, told me that he had beaten and harassed her and that she was afraid to break up with him, which was a lie, but for the moment I believed her. The new year came, I took it with me to my company, which was also my then friend. He played our song three times and stared at me. At one point she went outside and I went to her, she was naughty and cheered her up when she smiled and couldn't stand it, I forgot about everything and everyone and kissed her, but I remembered that I had someone and I pulled away, but she pulled me away again to himself and kissed me, I asked her what she wanted and she answered "him", that is the first. I left her and left. She met him and now they are together, but I do not stop thinking about her, she tells a girl that she misses me and that she dreams of me all the time, but her friend does not let her look for me. Help me people, I have a girlfriend at the moment, but I keep thinking about how it is, if there is a need for something.