Hello, my story has a story that I shared here almost more than two years ago and it says "I love them both or I love only myself ?!" (take a look so I don't tell everything from the beginning). Hahaha, you may be guessing what this sequel will be like, but a lot of things have happened in these two years ... My friend N. and I went to England shortly after the publication of that story, and the boy who had gotten under me like that skin D. caught a girlfriend and lived with her (they still live together). So after my departure D. and I talked quite often on the phone, he told me about the love and the problems they have with his girlfriend, etc., as if half a year had passed and my boyfriend and I returned to Bulgaria for a while in the spring. . One weekend we gathered the old party and D. was there, but without my girlfriend (supposedly she didn't want to come), after a drunken binge we went back to the apartment that my friend N. and D. had rented (We continued to drink (some super fake whiskey) when the three of us went home, N. and we pulled something and he went and went to bed, I went to apologize to him, but he was moaning hard, I went back to smoke on the terrace and D. appeared. I thought he was lying down, but he sat down with me and silently began to me gape. I don't remember what we talked about and how much, but we ended up in his room and undressed, had sex twice, I wouldn't lie, it was amazing. We fell asleep hugged and naked together, at one point I woke up because I got cold and saw him next to me - I felt hellishly bad, but at the same time as if that was all I wanted ... I kissed him and went to N. The rest is over and we returned to England, as if nothing had happened. My contacts and chats with D. then slowly but surely diminished until they stopped completely. At the end of the summer I learned that I was pregnant and N. and I were on the cusp of happiness, we decided to return to Bulgaria. permanently and to raise a baby here. The beginning of this spring we returned home and a few months later our wonderful son was born. I didn't believe I could love someone that way, but for me he is perfect. E. didn't even congratulate me, but I didn't even think of him at that moment. A month later he congratulated me and said that he was very busy and had no time for anything and in general this was our conversation. For several days I have been dreaming of him every night - I dream of having sex, I even dream that we live together with the little one and make plans for another child, all kinds of scenarios in which N. is not present and I feel that it's starting to come into my head again and I can't stop thinking about it. I love N., he is still the father of my child and he takes care of us every day. Our love life with N. is going perfectly, given that we have a small baby. I don't know why and how D. reappeared so uninvitedly in my dreams (the title is thematic, but only here it is understood: e). We are discussing with people from the company, the beginning of autumn to make a reunion and then I will most likely see D., after a year and a half from our last so to speak meeting. This time I know that I will not do anything, because now I have someone more valuable for whom I will try to keep our family with N. whole. The question is hypothetical, if after this meeting my feelings for D. return, because obviously I have something really strong towards this person, how do i get it out of my head? How can I move forward with the person next to me and the father of my child N., if I subconsciously love another? Is it worth not experiencing this love, if there is such an option, in the name of the child to have a father and mother who are together. Will this child be happy if mom doesn't love dad so much? Don't get me wrong, I love N. because he is the father of my child and he gave me him, I'm tied up, but I just know inwardly that I love D. too, even if we don't hear and see each other for months, even a few thoughts about it is enough to ignite what is smoldering in me. Thanks to those who have read everything, I will be happy for advice, criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is useful. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy? if I subconsciously love another? Is it worth not experiencing this love, if there is such an option, in the name of the child to have a father and mother who are together. Will this child be happy if mom doesn't love dad so much? Don't get me wrong, I love N. because he is the father of my child and he gave me him, I'm tied up, but I just know inwardly that I love D. too, even if we don't hear and see each other for months, even a few thoughts about it is enough to ignite what is smoldering in me. Thanks to those who have read everything, I will be happy for advice, criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is useful. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy? if I subconsciously love another? Is it worth not experiencing this love, if there is such an option, in the name of the child to have a father and mother who are together. Will this child be happy if mom doesn't love dad so much? Don't get me wrong, I love N. because he is the father of my child and he gave me him, I'm tied up, but I just know inwardly that I love D. too, even if we don't hear and see each other for months, even a few thoughts about it is enough to ignite what is smoldering in me. Thanks to those who have read everything, I will be happy for advice, criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is useful. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy? doesn't dad love so much? Don't get me wrong, I love N. because he is the father of my child and he gave me him, I'm tied up, but I just know inwardly that I love D. too, even if we don't hear and see each other for months, even a few thoughts about it is enough to ignite what is smoldering in me. Thanks to those who have read everything, I will be happy for advice, criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is useful. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy? doesn't dad love so much? Don't get me wrong, I love N. because he is the father of my child and he gave me him, I'm tied up, but I just know inwardly that I love D. too, even if we don't hear and see each other for months, even a few thoughts about it is enough to ignite what is smoldering in me. Thanks to those who have read everything, I will be happy for advice, criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is useful. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy? criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is in your favor. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy? criticism, insults, whatever you want, as long as it is in your favor. If someone is in the same situation or has been through something like this, what decision did you make and are you happy?
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I will enter quietly. I will sit meekly, stare into the darkness to see you. When I'm tired of looking at you, I'll kiss you and leave. The genius Vaptsarov .... Thank you for reminding me of this poem. I had forgotten him ...