I had a real nightmare tonight. I'm in a nervous breakdown and I can't calm down in any way. I lost faith in the good in total. I have had a sex friend for several months. Yesterday he invited me to a villa very spontaneously. He came with a friend, they took me in the car and we went to pick up another of His friends. We drank a lot at the party, we had to smoke. He pretended to be exemplary and did not pull himself off the joint. However, he began to behave mega lewd. He pushed me to his friend, unbuttoned his boxers in front of everyone, lifted my dress so that the other could see my strong ass. At one point he offered me sex and we had a quick toilet. This is not our first time. Otherwise we see each other at home sometimes. What happened next, however, completely ruined me mentally. He began to press in front of my eyes with the other girl (we were only two women) to kiss for a long time. She was lying on the couch, kissing, whatever they were doing. I don't know how I managed to put up with this, but she poured me the glass when she told me: Will you sleep with a man or alone.
Apparently he wanted to tell me to catch someone and get out, you're preventing us from having sex. I don't consider myself conservative, but his behavior made me feel brutally humiliated. Brutal. I didn't even bother to push myself upstairs in the bedroom, deliberately in the living room in front of everyone. I think he deliberately wants to harass me and make me suffer. I told his friend that I wanted to leave immediately. It was very far outside Sofia and there was no way to take a taxi. So I was almost forced to sit and watch them. I just couldn't stand it, I went upstairs and locked myself in the toilet. The others knocked, I was silent. At one point he somehow unlocked it with a knife, entered. I am silent again. Then I said that I don't want to see them anymore. I went out, I started to collect my things, he repeated my name to talk to me, I didn't say a word. What can I tell him ... to scream brutally or to say that I feel like full of garbage. Complete, brutally intolerable humiliation. I was about to run away and it turned out that the door of the villa also had a code and an iron gate.
So I had to go back. I sat there locked, they hugged naked on the couch like in love. He hugged her like I never remember me ever. And of course no wonder they had sex. Besides the grass, they brought coca. He didn't snort from it. In my opinion, he was absolutely conscious and aware of what he was doing, signing, but he could do sex with me. He wasn't too drunk, even with the clear awareness of how humiliating he was, he allowed himself to get here. I just don't know where I am. This kind of advice is bad, discard it, are redundant. I am in a total nervous breakdown. I can't stop this cruel feeling of humiliation I'm feeling.
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For you, he was not just a sex friend, while for him you were definitely just a sex toy. That's how the story sounds to me. I guess he took you completely lightly. Can you be sure that in your behavior he has not seen exactly such a girl with whom he can afford to "brag" to his friends. In my opinion, in order to come up with an explanation even for you, you have to look for the problem in yourself first. And it's easier to think about what you did to make that happen to you. The fault is never just one! I've never had a boy just for sex, but I guess if I had, we'd discuss the limits, which would make both of us happy. Apparently you didn't even suspect this nature of his, which is a risk of this type of relationship. After all, you only meet for sex ... Anyway, what happened - happened. A lesson from life, maybe a little rougher. But after that you will hardly experience this horror again and you will have one thing in mind about the attitude of men towards just sex girlfriends, you will be able to adequately refuse when you do not like something, you will be able to guess that being a sex girlfriend it doesn't make you someone's untouchable property and it's likely that there are much more valuable people to spend your free time with and really feel good both physically and emotionally. And in order to shake off this nightmare faster, I can recommend you to block all your contacts with this man and not allow yourself to think about him by doing sports, work, hobbies, etc. But after that you will hardly experience this horror again and you will have one thing in mind about the attitude of men towards just sex girlfriends, you will be able to adequately refuse when you do not like something, you will be able to guess that as a sex girlfriend this it doesn't make you someone's untouchable property and it's likely that there are much more valuable people to spend your free time with and really feel good both physically and emotionally. And in order to shake off this nightmare faster, I can recommend you to block all your contacts with this man and not allow yourself to think about him by doing sports, work, hobbies, etc. But after that you will hardly experience this horror again and you will have one thing in mind about the attitude of men towards just sex girlfriends, you will be able to adequately refuse when you do not like something, you will be able to guess that being a sex girlfriend it doesn't make you someone's untouchable property and it's likely that there are much more valuable people with whom to spend your free time and really feel good both physically and emotionally. And in order to shake off this nightmare faster, I can recommend you to block all your contacts with this man and not allow yourself to think about him by doing sports, work, hobbies, etc. you will be able to guess that being a sex friend does not make you someone's untouchable property and probably that there are much more valuable people with whom you can spend your free time and really feel good both physically and emotionally. And in order to shake off this nightmare faster, I can recommend you to block all your contacts with this man and not allow yourself to think about him by doing sports, work, hobbies, etc. you will be able to guess that being a sex friend does not make you someone's untouchable property and probably that there are much more valuable people with whom you can spend your free time and really feel good both physically and emotionally. And in order to shake off this nightmare faster, I can recommend you to block all your contacts with this man and not allow yourself to think about him by doing sports, work, hobbies, etc.