Shy Boy ..

Hello, writes a girl of 17. Last summer I noticed a boy at a party. He was very sweet and beautiful. I liked it back then, but I thought it was only a temporary attraction. I met him again a few days later and realized that I liked him very much. I asked my friends about him, I understood his name, everyone told me he was a good boy. He is two years older than me. The problem is that he is very shy. He is always at the back of the crowd, talking to almost no one but his closest friends. Since I'm not one of the most open, I didn't know what to do. One night, we were at a party again, I accidentally turned around and noticed that he was looking at me. I thought I was imagining. I deliberately hid in the crowd and watched him. He stood for a while and began to look around, even lifting his fingers at one point. I thought again that I was imagining nonsense, I didn't take it seriously. One night there was something like a gathering with friends, he was there again. But it was at the front, which surprised me a lot. Then he started dancing, talking loudly, laughing. In general, it was as if he was not the same person. We were very close to the dance floor, I looked at it and our eyes met. Then he started calling his friends, dancing even more, straightening his hair ... I couldn't believe my eyes. He never, ever behaved like that. I really wanted to talk to him, to get to know him, I just didn't know how. Summer has passed, winter has come, spring has come. I hadn't seen him since. I tried to forget it, and I thought I did, but we met again yesterday. On the street. He was with a friend, they were standing there. I was with a friend, we were walking right to them. As we approached, they moved in front of us. At one point he turned back slightly, not entirely, he looked with his periphery and kept walking. They were moving forward, but suddenly he turned and entered a diner. So, out of nowhere. I think even his friend was surprised. There was a party again in the evening and he was there again. This time he was behind the crowd again. All his friends went to dance, he just stood there. I decided to do something like an experiment. I approached and looked at him. He started looking in different directions, even looking up, I have no idea what. I kept watching it all night. I was quite far away from him, I looked at him and he was looking at me. So, right in me. He kept looking at me, me too. But when I approach him, he always looks everywhere, but not at me. I'm very confused, I don't know what to do. I'm not very experienced in these things, I don't know what his actions mean. I tried to forget it many times. However, if he was interested in me, he would come, talk to me, write to me. But he did nothing. Absolutely nothing. As shy as he was, if he wanted to talk to me, he would. I repeated these things to myself, I tried to forget him, but when I accidentally caught him looking at me, I began to hold out my hopes again. Empty hopes. Every day I get more and more disappointed. I don't know how to forget it. I know it's not love because I don't know him as a person, as a character. But I've never liked someone so much before. Maybe it seemed to me that he was looking at me, maybe he liked me before, not anymore ... I'm tired of trying to get closer to him, I don't have the courage to talk to him, and if he doesn't like me? I feel that with these attempts I look pathetic, but I really like it. It's been too long, I'm sorry. I've just been trying for a few months to figure out what's going on. If any of you liked a shy boy or if you are, I would be happy to give you advice.