Should I Contact Him?

The Story

Hello! I am a girl of 20 years and three months ago I had a very difficult separation. The relationship lasted half a year, which against the background of my previous relationship, which was 3 and a half, does not seem who knows what, but I feel it is much more valuable than the previous one. The boy broke up with me on the pretext that he had the feeling that such a strong attachment was killing him. Here perhaps I should add that he has never had a relationship before me and is afraid of a very serious relationship, no matter in what direction. I saw him during the relationship that he was confused and not sure what exactly was happening to him. His other reason for our separation was that he was obsessed with me and he couldn't stand it. When he is with me he is happy, when he is not with me he is not and that makes him unproductive, etc. He stated that it is best for both of us to separate ... In general, I did not understand much what was happening, because especially the last week, our relationship was more than wonderful and it came like thunder from a clear sky. But after a long conversation, I supported him in his decision because he said it would make him feel better, and yet that's the important thing, isn't it ! Anyway ... Three months passed without hearing from us for any reason. And I don't stop thinking about him every day and crying. I miss him terribly. I may be wrong, but I don't think I've ever felt such strong love. Many times I wanted to look for him, but I told myself that he still broke up with me and I had nothing to harass him about. 3-4 days ago we ran into an event, we didn't talk much because I tried not to intrude, but at one point he offered me if he wanted to send me to us when I left, he gave me cigarettes without asking him and at one point in the evening he grabbed my hand for a while ... He also smiled at me very radiantly all the time. After tonight, I hurry even further. Now I don't know what to do, because my desire to contact him is even greater, I only think about him and my hopes that they will contact this person again at the moment are huge. But I just don't want to write to him, I don't want to be the one who annoys him after he stopped contacting me, and most of all I don't want to be rejected again. I'm not sure it's a good idea to meet him, but I definitely want to have contact with him. But I can't write or call him. Maybe I just can't swallow my ego, I don't know ... But it all kills me. I would be very grateful, if you give me advice on what to do or tell me a similar incident from your life experience. Thank you for your time :)

Last Updated
November 08, 2020
Author:
silvia_xxx

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