Should I Accept Working With A Woman I Have Feelings For?

Hello, I am a girl of 21, a second year student. I study medicine and every week I go to practice in different departments of hospitals. I have been in a ward for 2 weeks, which I will tell you about now. In general, I'm smart and I take all the exams, but I'm not impudent and I can't push myself, that's why most of my practice mentors have always thought that I'm lazy and that I don't care about anything, kind of that I don't have the desire and that nothing will happen to me. In this ward, however, both my mentor and the other nurses liked me very much. Maybe they saw potential in me, and when I see that they are behaving well, I also want to do a lot of things. Of course, not only me, the others in my group are also quite active, but it was very obvious that from the second day I was everyone's favorite, especially one of the sisters. He only knew my name, greeted me personally and always smiled at me, talked to me.

He kept telling the rest of the staff how I was the most conscientious and hardworking. Even when one of the other sisters praised another girl, she immediately looked at her and then told her that I was the best. I also heard her mentor advise me that only I should have 6 on the colloquium, and she completely agreed with that and said that it would happen. All in all, all these things made me very happy, because others have always been praised, and I am somehow unnoticed and underestimated. Almost always others have had higher grades than me in practical classes.

And now, without realizing how things turned upside down. And in this euphoria in which I fell, without realizing it, I began to fall for this sister, whom I said I liked the most. For the record, I'm bisexual. I am more than convinced that she has nothing to do with me because she is married and has children. Although she has said several times that I am not only the most industrious but also the most beautiful of all, I am sure she did not say that in that sense. In general, I realize that I have no chance, and that maybe my feelings are dictated by the special attention I receive from her, and that otherwise, I would hardly pay attention, even though she is a beautiful woman. The problem is that I only have one more day in this ward, and then my internship there ends.

That is, I will hardly see her again, but since they liked me very much, they offered me to start working for them from the next school year in a relatively low but satisfying position. The question is whether to accept knowing that I will see her every day and maybe my feelings will deepen even more, or to refuse, taking another path? I will not lie, I want to accept more than anything, I am super sad that I will not see her again and I do not want to miss this opportunity. But on the other hand, I wonder if I will not torture myself in this way. I apologize for taking so long, but I wanted to describe all the details. I will be grateful for any advice and comments!