Shame On The Past!

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I have a problem that has plagued me for years. By nature, I'm more anxious in communicating with people, more cowardly, I'm not someone open to the heavens with confidence. I am almost 17 years old now. and I am still tormented by the event in the past. I haven't shared it with absolutely anyone and now I decided to share it here. So the incident happened when I was 10 years old. (4th grade) in the school yard, a peer had annoyed me and I hit him roughly on the ground. Then the director came, and he grabbed me roughly and pulled me aside and started arguing with me about what I had done. At that moment, obviously the fear of the director's appearance in me strongly prevailed and I dropped out of my pants (I peed). A lot of children saw me and started laughing at me. I was very uncomfortable - and then I ran away. And so even though 7 years have already passed. I'm still ashamed of what happened. Even when I passed people on the street, when they were there, I don't dare to look at them, and one of them is my cousin and we haven't talked since then, and it wasn't like that before (like strangers). I wonder what would happen if someone hinted to me about it, even though I was small, but not who knows how much, I'm still ashamed. So my requests are, if someone can help me overcome this nasty incident, someone to share if something like this has happened to him, how to overcome such shame. I know it's nice to share, so one gets rid of the tension. If there are people with such incidents PLEASE write THANK YOU IN ADVANCE !!! I wonder what would happen if someone hinted to me about it, even though I was small, but not who knows how much, I'm still ashamed. So my requests are, if someone can help me to overcome this nasty incident, someone to share if something like this has happened to him, how to overcome such shame. I know it's nice to share, so one gets rid of the tension. If there are people with such incidents PLEASE write THANK YOU IN ADVANCE !!! I wonder what would happen if someone hinted to me about it, even though I was small, but not who knows how much, I'm still ashamed. So my requests are, if someone can help me overcome this nasty incident, someone to share if something like this has happened to him, how to overcome such shame. I know it's nice to share, so one gets rid of the tension. If there are people with such incidents PLEASE write THANK YOU IN ADVANCE !!!

Last Updated
October 28, 2020
Author:
roxy_sweetbutt

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