Hello. For several months I have been in a severe depression from which I cannot get out. The reason I turned to you is that there is simply no one else. I have no close friends, and I have distanced myself from my relatives. Countless people are depressed, but I started to die physically and I became afraid. For most of the day, I feel tension in my muscles, and sometimes my arms and legs tremble. I feel palpitations and stiffness all over my body. I also developed tricks similar to those that occur in OCD. You all know all the other symptoms of depression, so I won't mention them. Where did it all start? It started in the early fall of last year, when due to the fact that of the dozens of decisions I had to make within a few weeks, all were wrong - up to one. At least once in all, if I had decided something else, or even if I had slept for 10 minutes, heard my phone, or lingered in line at the store, I wouldn't have gotten here. Everything just went wrong. I can't stop thinking about it. I know what happened, but I keep banging my head against the wall and blaming myself for not doing what I shouldn't have done, why I wasn't late, or why I shouldn't have heard my phone right then. I just feel myself destroying myself, thinking only of what it would have been like if at least one of these little things hadn't happened. How good I would be now and how I would be on top of the world. If I had left things to chance, I wouldn't have gotten here again. Why the hell did I have to interfere and make them worse. I think you will understand what I mean. I'm just obsessed with thoughts about the past and what mistakes I've made. I constantly apologize and torment myself. What happened is reversible, and there is some possibility that it will happen again, although then I was served, and now I will have to fight indefinitely for it, and I have already lost enough time and just do not have the enthusiasm to do it. I just feel like we're ruining ourselves little by little, and I can't accept the fact that what happened has happened and I have to move on. Please advise me how to get rid of these thoughts and this state of anger? I know it's all from me, but I can't fight these thoughts. and now I'm going to have to fight indefinitely for it, and I've already lost enough time and just don't have the enthusiasm to do it. I just feel like we're ruining ourselves little by little, and I can't accept the fact that what happened has happened and I have to move on. Please advise me how to get rid of these thoughts and this state of anger? I know it's all from me, but I can't fight these thoughts. and now I'm going to have to fight indefinitely for it, and I've already lost enough time and just don't have the enthusiasm to do it. I just feel like we're ruining ourselves little by little, and I can't accept the fact that what happened has happened and I have to move on. Please advise me how to get rid of these thoughts and this state of anger? I know it's all from me, but I can't fight these thoughts.
1 asagold answered
Seek a good psychologist and start visiting him.