Separation-camila6699

Hello, I would like to share my story. It was very dramatic for me, but many questions remained after it. I was with a boy for 4 years. Our love in the beginning was really very beautiful and few people could boast of such. Over the years, however, the person I considered "sinless" changed a little less, and I did not realize it (I came to this conclusion only after the separation). We were boyfriends, but we were together everywhere, things got worse and he gradually started coming home and my parents accepted him as very close. At the beginning of the 4th year, since we were together, I started repeating over and over that I wanted to live together, and he seemed to agree, but he was always thinking of something to postpone it. He started working in a nice company, I also had a prestigious job and it was logical for us to live together. We rented an apartment and he moved in with me gradually for 1 week, with the stipulation that he did not want to leave his parents so suddenly. And the dramas started here. He was very cold, but I didn't pay attention then. After his birthday, he received an invitation to go on a business trip for 1 week, and he accepted it. He had received such invitations before, but he always declined them for me so that I would not be left alone. He returned after 1 week and was completely changed. He had fallen in love with another of his colleagues there, on the other side, and his behavior toward me became different. He did not say that this was the reason, but we parted for exactly 2 days, leaving me in complete ignorance. I myself came to the truth that the reason was another woman. For many months he called me and told me that we would get together and be together again, it was just a matter of time, as there are many things around him that he could not share with me. And so for about 3 months - I, like a fool, tormented myself and "waited" for him to return to me. Here I want to insert a little for myself. I wouldn't want to sound immodest, but I'm a good-looking girl, well-educated and well-paid, it's normal to have fans, but I didn't let anyone in - that's why I let myself be called a "fool" here, because the behavior it was not inherent in me then. And while I was waiting for him, and he was behaving with me - one day wonderful, and the next terrible, I began to "live" a little less. His demeanor was more like a madman than a sober thinker. At times I wondered if the problem was not in me. It wasn't until a few months later that I allowed myself to go out and pay more attention to myself. He ended his relationship with this girl very quickly and the last thing I know was that he was looking for a new girlfriend because he felt lonely. I met a boy with whom I really met love, and now I want to brag that we are expecting a baby and we have a wedding in a few months. Our relationship is built on a lot of love and understanding and I am a really happy woman. But the questions that remain after "that" separation are many and I may never be able to answer why such a strong and searing relationship turned 180% and whether the reason was just that passion He claimed to be sorry for our separation, but I heard that too late, and of course I didn't believe him, as you might guess. I will be grateful for your comments. I've wanted to write my story for a long time, but I figured I could do it when the pain went away, because otherwise I would be prejudiced. Thanks to everyone who was moved and recognized a part of themselves in it.