Security Or Take A Risk

The Story

Hello. I share my story because I really need opinions and help in the situation I am in. I am a man of about 40 years of age and despite my life experience I am in a situation to choose the safe or to take risks. I had a 3 year relationship with a girl from whom I came out very hurt. I won't go into details, but I was used to money, an awful lot of money for every standard. After this scald in my life, it is very difficult to trust a woman again. Don't think that I am a commercial type who thinks only about money and ambitions, I always thought that in order to be truly happy, one must have everything. After this incident I did not let anyone near me for 4 years. Six months ago, I renewed my friendship with the best friend of the girl X, from whom I was injured. Fate had decided to meet me with her, and we saw each other as friends without either of us thinking of anything more. I was surprised that a 26-year-old girl had the mindset of a 40-year-old woman and was struggling with life to achieve something and most importantly she knew what she wanted from life plus a good heart.

He was graduating with a master's degree and at the same time making plans for his own business. After daily conversations and acquaintances, she told me that she feels something more towards me and wants us to be together as a couple, because I have built trust in her and she knows how much I was hurt before and she herself only came across men who took advantage. from her. I replied that I also have sympathy for her, but it is difficult for me to admit someone to me, because I pursue goals and I am about to achieve them. I add that I live abroad and she is in Bulgaria. Summer, the business idea she had failed and she was left with a loan to a non-banking institution in the amount of BGN 10,000. I also helped with one or two installments for the loan, because I saw that it was difficult for her and her entire salary went to the loan, which amounted to BGN 1,000 per month. I myself could not postpone my things and I said that I did not want her to rely on me but to rely mainly on herself, because we have no connection and no one owes anyone. Whereupon she replied that it was stupid for some money not to start a relationship and that she herself wanted a person in her life with whom to help and build something. I am about to return to Bulgaria in 25 days and we are currently looking for an option how to fix this loan faster so that we can be together.

She works and lives  and the only option to get together in my home is to fix this loan first, because I do not want to live in Sofia for rent, given that I have my own home that I acquired completely on my own. I also told her that we both had to give up some things if we wanted a good life. I emphasize that there has never been intimacy between us and a completely friendly relationship and that is exactly what she wants us to build a future together. The positive things I see in her - ambitious, knows what she wants, good, educated and has shown that she thinks about me. Appearance has long been a criterion for me, because I realized that the beautiful apples are rotten inside. The negatives that made me back off - she relies too much on me, maybe because she grew up without a father's support. The age limit is 15 years, which over time will have an impact on starting a family. I tried twice to tell her her address to which to send her something but I received a silent answer and I told her that trust is not built and everyone can want to be my friend. She got very angry with me and told me that I had offended her a lot by thinking of her that way. Should I risk arranging half of her loan and the other half of her by selling her car and being together or breaking off contact? I apologize, if there are spelling mistakes for 7 years I do not live in Bulgaria.

Last Updated
August 23, 2020
Author:
celtic_cream

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