Reversal

Haha hello! A bit of a dumb title, but you'll take it at 17 I'm still. I am here because I have no one else to turn to for my stupid question, namely how to change my environment? I mean to meet cooler and poisoned, I'm tired of only fagots and obedient girls in this math high school. I'm tired of being good and submissive to mom and dad, of having to pursue high ambitions in education. I don't even know why I'm doing it and why I rubbed in there. I know I'm not fighting for my future for someone else, I know they want the best for us, but God, I can't take it anymore. I haven't experienced anything for so long, and there is no prospect of things changing obviously. Everyone tells me that it's good to be among the "smarter", not to push myself into bad companies, but even if I want to, I can't find naughtier people. What are you talking about? To secure your antiques? And without medicine, in time I can push my life. If I could play both people, I would. I was going to study and have a good time with people. At the moment I don't know what I'm chasing, I'm not happy at all. I want a little adrenaline, I want to have fun, and after 1-2 years, God forbid, I enter a medically strong ass and study. Then work, kids, proving, doesn't sound interesting to me. It's none of my business, and at the same time I can't just give up. I just can't find the connection between intelligent and wealthy people and these children are soul and life. Please tell me what to do, I have no intention of perverting, whoring, taking drugs or all the vices of my sets. Where to go, how to make contacts. I don't have gray. I tried gyms, dances and women there again, I don't know. The same picture as my class and the teacher as a whole. Judge me as you wish, but you know I'm very dumb and if you can tell me how to make a bad turn, advise me. You can be good at this. :): P