Relationship With An 18 Year Older Man

The Story

Hello, a 20-year-old girl writes to you. I don't have a boyfriend at the moment, I've had 2 so far, but nothing serious happened with any of them. I have been seeing a 38-year-old man for some time. He is not married, he did not have a wife or a child. We have known each other for maybe a year, but no one has done anything during that period. We met by chance 1 month ago and since then he started writing to me. We see each other almost every day (let me emphasize that we do not have sex). He called me to work to see me for 10 minutes (he is a policeman and I often keep him company while he works), he introduced me to his friends, some of them are even around my age. He didn't even hint at sex, it seems that he has serious intentions, I also want something serious, but I know that we have no future together. I also work a lot, mostly night shifts, sometimes I only rest once a week, I would say I get a very good salary, I'm a serious girl, but we just don't have a future together. After all, he is 38 years old, it's time for a wife, children, and I don't think I'm ruining my life with these things from now on. I also study higher education, life is just in front of me. We get along very differently, and he's the same crazy head as me, he goes out to discos all the time, back and forth, he's not like some kind of "retiree", which I really like. I see that he has sunk into me, he writes to me literally every free minute, but with each passing day I wonder if I should finish all this, because if I procrastinate for a long time, I will eventually fall in love and it will become even harder. I recently told my sister that I was seeing the man in question, and she started muttering to me (she is 28 years old) that he was big, he started making jokes, which didn't make me happy. Well, I guess that if something happens, other people's reactions will be the same, and my parents will probably write me off, even though I'm already big, I support myself completely and I'm not dependent on them. Please tell me how to proceed? I am very confused. At one point I tell myself that this has to end, and that I have to find a boy around my age, and at another point I tell myself that if two people want each other, age doesn't matter, etc. Give me advice, please...

Last Updated
August 23, 2020
Author:
dianachantel

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