Hi, I've been thinking of scribbling one or two lines here for a long time. Unfortunately, I will hardly have enough space or I will be able to describe exactly how I feel, but I will try :) You are about to read a very pleasant nostalgic story about a girl and a boy who met on the Internet. I am 26 and have been living in England for two years now. I fall in love with everything, but most of all I fall in love with only one thing, and that is the Love of my life. You must be wondering how I found out? Well, let's start with the fact that I absolutely never even imagined that I would meet someone like this girl. I have always strived for serious relationships, although lately I have been a little busy looking for a partner, I have always believed that sooner or later in your life there will be this someone who will turn everything around. Your whole world. Everything you've ever dreamed of and stuff. For a long time now, I've been looking at and looking at couples passing by and wondering how lucky they are. Well, that's what happened to me, but it turned out that I fell in love with a beautiful young girl. She is 6 years younger than me, but hardly anyone has ever stopped him. For me, she is the perfect partner and this is evident for countless reasons, that I am even inclined to liken her to 1, and this is herself :) Because all these reasons that seduce me or so to speak pull them are worn by only one person, a combination of sexuality, kindness, way of thinking, even the music I listen to I like. We have so many similarities that I almost sometimes feel like she's in me or I'm in her. I can't compare it in any other way :) A kind, kindred spirit. Is that really so? Is all this really happening? I asked myself these questions for quite a long time until at one point, I just decided not to give in and indulge in the ebbs and flows that I experienced in the company of this soulmate of mine that I had longed for so long. Will things turn out to be much more complicated than I ever imagined, as I said, I have always strived for serious relationships and friendship between two individuals, caused by the feelings between them. As it has already become clear to any of you, the girl in question, my lady, the little sweet lady who is ready to throw fire and brimstone if you step on the wrong foot. As ardent as I am, I know that for some of you, opposites attract more than identities, but for me, that's not the case. We have both come to such conclusions. So .. mor to di point, so to speak, let's continue :) Things not only turned out to be complicated because we were separated by hundreds of thousands of kilometers, but because we both mourned how we felt about each other and we were separated, we were so close one another, and at the same time so far away.
I wanted and I want to give her everything I am capable of, and at one point it turned out that it could not happen, as long as she had a friend, maybe they are still together, but this is unlikely to break me more than that to be separated and not even be able to touch her. Although we both caress each other with words and so on, which in itself is unique. And that's how it all started, word for word. Over time, I felt like we were both pushing each other a hell of a lot, falling asleep and waking up with the lyrics we were sending each other. We spent so much time together that I'm not even sure if I've ever spent so much time with anyone. Undoubtedly something was happening, and I wanted more and more. Even when the moment came when I began to suffocate from the newly formed everyday life, I did not want to give up, nor did I want to admit it, I wanted every minute, every second was unreal. Alas, she felt this and we started to push each other away, I don't know exactly how it turned out, but I think it was my fault, I couldn't just fight the newly accumulated facts, nor could I just wave my hands and everything was simple. to finish, it was too precious for me, and it still is :) Imperceptibly I started to become someone I barely knew, I was depressed. And it all came from the fact that over time, I began to realize how much I actually fell for it, we talked on skype, the voice made me feel like I was in heaven, I shivered at the thought of her. I walked on water and I am not Christ is sung in one song. And how my heart flutters when I see her online :)
More than 6 months have passed since then and there is not a day in which her name, or just she herself is not in my head, as if sowing something like a seed in me, which grows in me and becomes stronger with each passing day. We didn't get to the point of finishing our sentences, it would be ridiculous. Or at least to some extent I was trying to avoid him (It's as if the conversation will almost end this way) Nz, and maybe not. At least that's how I felt when she said something and it turned out that it was in my head exactly the same sentence. We kind of complemented each other mentally until at one point I just collapsed. This was happening to both her and me. I had the feeling that it was as if someone was shooting you, it was a blow to the head. You are shocked, you do not know what to say. You can only smile like an oligophrenic, wondering HOW THE HELL DOES THIS HAPPEN? !! I caught a little but the essence itself is still here. I hope the moderator will allow me to make the 2nd and why not the 3rd statement :) There is just so much to say, I have written a lot and at the same time almost nothing, not enough. At one point it turned out that she just wanted us to remain friends, and I couldn't and didn't want to afford it, even though I knew it was the only thing I could afford at the moment. ... to be continued I caught a little but the essence itself is still here. I hope the moderator will allow me to make the 2nd and why not the 3rd statement :)
There is just so much to say, I have written a lot and at the same time almost nothing, not enough. At one point it turned out that she just wanted us to remain friends, and I couldn't and didn't want to afford it, even though I knew it was the only thing I could afford at the moment. ... to be continued I caught a little but the essence itself is still here. I hope the moderator will allow me to make the 2nd and why not the 3rd statement :) There is just so much to say, I have written a lot and at the same time almost nothing, not enough. At one point it turned out that she just wanted us to remain friends, and I couldn't and didn't want to afford it, even though I knew it was the only thing I could afford at the moment. ... to be continued