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Hello! I met my boyfriend 2 years ago. In the beginning, as always, everything was rosy, until later we got to know each other even better and various quarrels began. This, of course, is normal. I dare say, we will really fight only for serious things, not for trifles. From the very beginning he is not romantic, he rarely makes gestures, but he is very understanding, he does not be rude to me, with a few exceptions. We have almost never had too deep conversations, conversations about the real things in life, and I miss that, I am charged with such things. I need to comment on the real things happening in the world these days ... and he doesn't. He just doesn't look the same way. While I need deep thought with my friends, he needs to be angry with me for the most superficial things possible, like why I didn't pick up right away, why I didn't write at 1 pm, why I go out with friends and not with him, and if I don't go out with him, then I don't love him. I've been feeling very tired lately because of these things, and I'm angry that he's just grumbling and doing nothing. I'm always the reason things aren't ok. Just because I want a lot, I want a deep and mature relationship, we are not small, I think I am mature enough for a real relationship. Or am I living a delusion and real relationships are not based on that? Am I the only one who thinks it is normal for a man to make gestures, to make the woman next to him feel wanted, beautiful ... or are all men already women and still dissatisfied? that he only grumbles and does nothing. I'm always the reason things aren't ok. Just because I want a lot, I want a deep and mature relationship, we are not small, I think I am mature enough for a real relationship. Or am I living a delusion and real relationships are not based on that? Am I the only one who thinks it is normal for a man to make gestures, to make the woman next to him feel wanted, beautiful ... or are all men now women and still dissatisfied? that he only grumbles and does nothing. I'm always the reason things aren't ok. Just because I want a lot, I want a deep and mature relationship, we are not small, I think I am mature enough for a real relationship. Or am I living a delusion and real relationships are not based on that? Am I the only one who thinks it is normal for a man to make gestures, to make the woman next to him feel wanted, beautiful ... or are all men now women and still dissatisfied?