Psychiatric Problems

Given how the title is spelled, I guess this is the most accurate way to determine your current condition. My problem is rooted in the fact that lately I am more and more desperate for myself. I am a girl of 21, I recently returned from abroad with the idea to fix my relationship with my friend (with whom we have been together for almost 5 years / we have been living together for 4) and to find a job. I returned exactly on the holidays of December and the chance to find a suitable job was almost insignificant (or so I justify myself). The important thing is that I was terribly inspired to rearrange my life (for I don't know which time already). It so happened, however, that despite all the interviews I went to and despite all the approval I received from literally every place I applied, I always found some flaws. Not even kosur, but rather I was afraid, that I can expose myself, despite all the experience I have, the desire and the inner 100 percent conviction that I can do it. Soon, after all the wandering, I found my place. I started with desire, I did my job conscientiously, in a short time I got into things a lot, as if I had been working in this place for 10 years, not 1 week. In general, I am a very quiet and calm person, without excessive self-confidence, rather silent, but also somewhat open to people. I accepted the criticism of acquaintances and strangers in silence, I even wondered if I was wrong. Until my boss's girlfriend decided she had to try to crush me emotionally, threatening me even with physical self-mutilation. It all happened because, as each of you knows, different people, different habits, different ways of working. The first few days I put up with the evil ones, almost "I'm over you" comments related to the way I work (given that I'm not in this area today or yesterday). In the end, I just asked her to let me do my job in peace and if she wanted to tell me something, share it when she was done. I have always acted with care and responsibility for the duties entrusted to me, but I get tense when someone hangs on my head and talks to me while I work. This request was followed by remarks such as "Who are you" Do you know who I am? "'' That's not how things will be '' and so on. In general, I feel when people are not in the mood and I try to keep quiet, not to heat up the situation, but after the subsequent threats I could not help myself. We exchanged a few remarks and feeling that things were not going well, I just asked for what I had done and left. You see, I felt great in this place, I went to work willingly, I did my job willingly, I felt calm, I was just happy to have found my place, that I would not wait for my friend to support me and pay everyone our bills, rent and supplies and everything collapsed. And it collapsed because I didn't keep quiet as usual, but I decided it was time to defend myself even verbally. Now, in part, I'm very sorry that this is how it happened. I feel like I'm collapsing emotionally, I feel mentally and physically tired, even though I'm not working and I'm in the process of looking for a new job. I feel drained, and I'm only 21. Everyday life, bills and this type of attitude of people crushes me. I crush myself, because I'm indecisive and obviously I know I'm cowardly. I try not to share with my friend because I don't want to burden him unnecessarily with my feelings and emotions, but I feel the tension crushing me. I want to help myself, but I don't know how. It took a little while, but in general, if I have to summarize - '' I am a person who has a great self-esteem and I know that I can do anything, but at the same time I let my fears and emotions control me and give me hinder '' I will be really happy if my topic reaches the audience of the site and I get any advice on how to deal with myself. I will pay attention to every comment, be it positive or negative. but I do not know how. It took a little while, but in general, if I have to summarize - '' I am a person who has a great self-esteem and I know that I can do anything, but at the same time I let my fears and emotions control me and give me interfere '' I will be really happy if my topic reaches the audience of the site and I get any advice on how to deal with myself. I will pay attention to every comment, be it positive or negative. but I do not know how. It took a little while, but in general, if I have to summarize - '' I am a person who has a great self-esteem and I know that I can do anything, but at the same time I let my fears and emotions control me and give me hinder '' I will be really happy if my topic reaches the audience of the site and I get any advice on how to deal with myself. I will pay attention to every comment, be it positive or negative. I will be really happy if my topic reaches the audience of the site and I get any advice on how to deal with myself. I will pay attention to every comment, be it positive or negative. I will be really happy if my topic reaches the audience of the site and I get any advice on how to deal with myself. I will pay attention to every comment, be it positive or negative.