Hi, I'm 17, girl. I live in a house in Sofia with my parents. My father has always been a lover of alcohol, but he didn't cause any problems unless he was shaking hard. It's time to say that although lately I have the feeling that he lost his alignment, he didn't hit my mother or at least I don't know .. However, they fight a lot .. I know I'm not the only one and I read a lot, but somehow I hope that sharing will make it easier for me. They quarrel, vicious, hateful .. you feel hatred in my father's voice and pain in my mother's ... and when they don't fight they don't talk .. they don't look at each other. So far I haven't been so sick. They have been sleeping on different floors for 2-3 months, they avoid each other .. My father drinks and drinks more and more .. and my mother smokes .. I don't know what to do .. The problem is not only that .. Their quarrels affect me, but they do not affect me as much as my father's attitude towards me. He constantly humiliates me at every opportunity, calls my friends obscene words, just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm very ashamed to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away .. but they do not affect me as much as my father's attitude towards me. He constantly humiliates me at every opportunity, calls my friends obscene words, just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm a hell of a shame to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away .. but they do not affect me as much as my father's attitude towards me. He constantly humiliates me at every opportunity, calls my friends obscene words, just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm a hell of a shame to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away .. as much as my father's attitude towards me. He constantly humiliates me at every opportunity, calls my friends obscene words, just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm a hell of a shame to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away .. as much as my father's attitude towards me. He constantly humiliates me at every opportunity, calls my friends obscene words, just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm a hell of a shame to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away .. he calls my friends obscene words, he just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm a hell of a shame to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away .. he calls my friends obscene words, he just wants to be his and twists everything I say. I am terribly disappointed with the world, with life .. At the age of 17 and honestly my worldview has changed to such an extent that I do not think there is anything good .. or at least for me .. I know that there are good people, but how to I still believe after my own father repeats to me that I am nothing and teaches me morals like "collect some money for you when you can ... but how will you collect ... you are stupid and you are not hungry and you do not understand". I just don't know what to do and I'm a hell of a shame to talk to anyone about it .. that's why I'm writing here, at least a little of the lump to get away ..
1 bigmessofcum answered
I think the problem comes from alcohol dependence. BUT nothing can be done because it is to the grave. Save yourself, get out, he's already ruined by life anyway, at least don't ruin yours.