Panic Attacks And Fear Of Sex

   You will not recover. And I'm afraid of being close to someone

   Go to a psychologist best. Medication helps temporarily and the problem returns. As far as I know, in such cases behavioral therapy helps.

   In my opinion, the way to recover is a long and deep psychotherapeutic work, there is nothing else. I was so, and worse, with panic attacks, social phobia, many other fears and so on. and for about 3 years of psychotherapy things have improved a lot. I no longer take antidepressants and have no panic attacks, and I successfully talk to strangers.

   For anxiety and panic attacks, a psychologist recommended me abdominal breathing - you go to bed and it is recommended to do it the night before bed or in the second part of the day - you go to bed, put one hand on your stomach and the other on your chest and start inhaling through your nose. you take in air with the lower part of the body - the hand that is on your abdomen should be raised first, then you move to the chest and this hand should be lifted from the air that you take in by counting to 8, so to speak, to move well. then you hold the air by counting to 4 and the count should be relatively calm for 4 seconds for example and after you have held the air you exhale through your mouth for 7 seconds slowly. Panic attacks do not pass quickly. But it all depends on you. 

   There is a vlogger who gets panic attacks. I recommend you see the video for her panic attacks as well.