My story is very long, but I know that no one likes to read long outpourings ..... So, I will try to be as short as possible ... My boyfriend and I were together for a year and 3 months .... After that the problems started, we broke up temporarily, then permanently and then I found another one .... I am fully aware that my new friend is not a commodity, they say everything and I understand it. We will be together for another 1-2 months at most, because I am another for him. I am not upset by this, because I do not care much .. The reason is that I still love my old friend. He was my first true, great love. He and I thought we would be together forever ... The future seemed perfect for us. I loved him more than anything, he loved me too ..... I will never find a second like him, there will never be a person who tolerates me so much ..... no one will treat me like him .... I feel good with my new friend when we are together. I'm having fun, but am I left alone ... all the good moments with my ex are in front of my eyes ... I know that I can bring him back with just one word, but it won't be fair to him anymore ... Now he's leaving for a year and a half in Portugal ... This is obviously the end. I know I can only stop him with one "Stay" ... but I don't want to keep him and stop him ... There is no future in Bulgaria, no money .... I want him to be happy, even if it means me to suffer ... I just want to share it somewhere, because I don't want him to know what I think and feel, because he will give up and he won't leave, and I don't want me to be the reason for that. And I've learned a lot from my whole story ... Never betray the person who loves you with all your heart for something fleeting, "dressed in a beautiful package" ... I became convinced that it was pointless. There comes a day when you start to regret, you understand your mistake, and it is too late to correct it and even dishonestly ...
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Why don't you tell him? Don't you think he won't be happy to hear it from you? And if your common future is really the best for both of you, why not stay in Bulgaria, or you go with him. No one knows what will happen next, but why you have to give up so easily.