Need Advice, I Was Betrayed

Hello, I never believed that I would write in shares. no. Let me share my story ... I work as an aircraft mechanic and travel quite often, I arrived in Lithuania in September working for a large airline (freelancer-aircraft mechanic) together with my colleagues from my previous job. We are staying in a nice hotel where mostly young girls work. A month after my arrival I started talking to one of them, working at the reception, and I saw that she also has an interest, to be honest a lot of people had to her .... Anyway, things happened and we went secretly, so that she has no problems in her work. At first, understandably, she was quite withdrawn, it was obvious that she was afraid of me. Ah, here is the moment to share that I am 29 years old, I look good, normal, with a sense of humor, I have never had a problem with women ... Anyway, over time I realized that she has some barriers caused by a problematic relationship 3 years ago with her first love and after that she had a short-term relationship with only one other boy, I dare believe her. I don't know how and what happened, but I fell in love with her, she is modest with big blue eyes, I sink into them every time ... But she didn't have what I saw in her, even though her eyes were in love. , as if she was putting up barriers, I work a lot 6 days a week for 12 hours, but I was always ready to take a taxi or set fire to my car and tired, sick no matter what I wanted to see her ... We had problems because of her attitude, I I thought there was another, that she didn't care and in the end it escalated so that the day before I went home for Christmas and New Year in Bulgaria we broke up. I realized how much I miss her and despite my pride I did everything I could to give me another chance - I wrote to her, we talked. In the end, she was inclined to see me after the holidays, I was flying in the clouds ... The day I traveled, neither news nor a bone from her, I see her online but she doesn't write, she doesn't care, it hurt me a lot, I finally asked her what's going on, she told me that she just doesn't care so much about me: ((It was a blow with a wet sock, it just pissed me off. We had an appointment to see each other the next day, she was out of town, it turned out that mother her health problems, I immediately calmed her down, offered help, I was ready to light up and go to her ... The next day she wrote to see me before my shift, if I could see each other accordingly and to my surprise, she was looking at me. in her eyes, she had made tea, cookies, and when I asked her if she was happy to see me, she said- Yes, I am happy and she hugged and kissed me !! Happy end, yeah great ... but no. The next few days I was on night shifts and we met at the hotel, the first two days everything was great, looks, jokes and suddenly he stopped writing to me, he stopped smiling. I was resting on Friday, she on Saturday, so we could spend Friday together, I sent her a message to ask her if she had any plans to see me and ... seen. I wrote to her again, is everything okay? Only then answer with the dry, let me tell you on Thursday, are you ok? Accordingly, I went crazy, I immediately started why you behave like that, how I deserved it, is there another and such questions. She obviously didn't like my behavior and said that everything was fine, but she was doing some things at home, talking to a friend of hers and what I wanted so much ... It hurt me a hell of a lot, I didn't answer anything ... the next day it happened to me dumb that I was still having problems due to lack of attention, which irritated her, and I went to her, apologized, my eyes watered. This is happening on Wednesday, she didn't say anything, she didn't write anything ... On Thursday, I already obviously felt that something was happening and I went to her at the reception when no one would ask her what was happening on Friday, she was clicking on phone, dropped it a second and told me "we are done, thats all", I just froze !! I asked her what it was on Sunday, why she was doing it and she said that there was nothing to talk about ... I went to work, there was no way my heart would jump out. I couldn't stand the evening - I wrote her what happened, why are you doing it, what did I do wrong? !! She replied, I'm sorry, just like I told you I don't care much - that's ...

Which I know is not because I've dated enough women and I know that look, I wrote her to tell me the truth, in the end, in my opinion, in order to shut up, she said that she just doesn't like me and that's ... Wonderful thing, you give the fool (this is me) hope and then you stab him to the bone !!! I stopped, I still had to leave a little dignity, although I crossed all boundaries and I thought I exposed myself. The next day I met one of her best friends, who I know likes me as a person, and I asked her in plain text, what should I do because I am emotionally crushed? She told me that she would ask and write to me, after 2 days I received an answer from the young lady's friend with the butcher's knife that at this stage it was better not to do anything ... The girl I am in love with was quoted as "She is lost a bit "and if we continue our relationship we will hurt each other, so I asked about" I don't care about you ", she told me that this is her way to hide, she doesn't really feel that way, but she deliberately chooses this time ... And now 7-8 days have passed, I changed my attitude abruptly, I just pass her like a fast train, she's blocked everywhere, I don't even look at her when she's at work, in the beginning, I saw her watching me pass her, now she also plays a role, knowing that we are returning from work hiding in the room or laughing out loud, but one of my colleagues who drives the official bus told me that according to him she didn't look like before, she was sad, she didn't have a smile like before ...

This thing is hardly related to me, I just want to hear an opinion from women, what kind of situation is this. I've had a lot of relationships, I've been cheated on, I've created, I've been hurt, I've done it too, but very rarely have I been willing to do anything to be with a certain woman as is the case, and to her "just she doesn't care. " And I was ready to invite her to Bulgaria, my contract is until May ... these are 4 months in which I either have to hate those blue eyes from the bottom of my soul (I know this thing) or I don't know, -soon I do not see much choice in this situation. The other thing I want to say is that there are comfortable flights, I dare say that I am doing quite well financially, money is not a problem at all, nor to travel, nothing is a problem and she knows it, except .... "I dont care "- this is the problem !!!

Thanks in advance to those who read my story and sorry for the spelling, after a night shift I write, I just pour out my pain, if any lady has an idea of ​​such a situation, let her share her experience :) in which I either have to hate those blue eyes from the bottom of my soul (I know this thing) or I don't know, rather I don't see much choice in this situation. The other thing I want to say is that there are comfortable flights, I dare say that I am doing quite well financially, money is not a problem at all, nor to travel, nothing is a problem and she knows it, except ....

"I dont care "- this is the problem !!! Thanks in advance to those who read my story and sorry for the spelling, after a night shift I write, I just pour out my pain, if any lady has an idea of ​​such a situation, let her share her experience :) in which I either have to hate those blue eyes from the bottom of my soul (I know this thing) or I don't know, rather I don't see much choice in this situation. The other thing I want to say is that there are comfortable flights, I dare say that I am doing quite well financially, money is not a problem at all, nor to travel, nothing is a problem and she knows it, except ....

"I dont care "- this is the problem !!! Thanks in advance to those who read my story and sorry for the spelling, after a night shift I write, I just pour out my pain, if any lady has an idea of ​​such a situation, let her share her experience :) nothing is a problem and she knows it except .... "I dont care" - that's the problem !!! Thanks in advance to those who read my story and sorry for the spelling, after a night shift I write, I just pour out my pain, if any lady has an idea of ​​such a situation, let her share her experience :) nothing is a problem and she knows it except .... "I dont care" - that's the problem !!! Thanks in advance to those who read my story and sorry for the spelling, after a night shift I write, I just pour out my pain, if any lady still has an idea of ​​such a situation, let her share her experience :)