Hi people, I'm in a very bad situation and I'm really struggling to hear advice from side people. I met him when I was 18. Like a first love, he was a very great thrill to me, from those violent love with screams, screams, tears, etc. When I finished school I decided to go abroad and continue my education, he knew this all the time and we had plans for him to come to me after he graduated because he was 1d younger than me. When I left it turned out to be a lot harder than I expected, as he was quite jealous, I could not go out with friends, with whom I had met, was jealous of everything, we were fighting about the slightest thing, then he dumped me for 2 weeks, and during that time he deliberately took drugs and told me that I was guilty because I wasn't looking for him after he dumped me. , trying to manipulate me the sort of if you don't do this and it's going to take drugs again, it was very bad for me, as the stress of everything came too much to me. We got together, and in a week, because of a stupid scandal, he dumped me again, this is not the first time, it blocks me in every possible place, I barely contacted him, but he said he doesn't love me and that he doesn't want to see me anymore, he spoke to me in very bad words. I felt like he was taking me for granted because I was always looking for him and expecting the same thing, but this time I said no. He hadn't called me for two months, I really thought it was all scraping because we never lasted more than three days without hearing. In Germany (where I study) I met a boy who gave everything for me to win me over, I liked him on appearance, but I didn't give him a chance. One day I was like, "Why not?", I'm 19 and I'm going to wait for someone who doesn't deserve me to come back. And then I went with the new boy, now I'm with him, and I never thought anyone would love me that way, he's so nice, he just could say he's a MAN on the spot. Recently, my ex contacted me and told me that he loved me, that he hadn't looked at someone else and wanted us to be together, and I had to tell him I had a new one. That moment was horrible, it cut my heart out. He cried, and so did I, then he called me a traitor and... The problem is, I think of him quite often and I have no future with this person, we don't even live in one country, and on the other side, I don't think I should hurt the new person I met, because I feel great with him. I'm asking for advice. :)
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