When I was young and stupid, I fell terribly in love with a scoundrel. I let him crush me for three years. He was cheating on me, behaving badly, not remembering me. But I felt attracted to a magnet. I stood in the corner of my loneliness, meek and kind, and waited. I waited for an apology, waited for him to see that I was in pain, waited for some small gesture of attention, and lied to myself that I was important to him. Until one day he told me he didn't want to deal with me anymore. And I didn't understand why it hurt terribly. It's such a terrible pain - I walked like dead for months. I neglected myself, lost weight, failed my job, lost all my friends, got into trouble with ours. I asked him to tell me why, to talk to me, and he did not respond to my text messages and letters. Time passed and I suffered. A very long healing process began and I regained my strength and will to live. But I was no longer the same and I hated myself. I had become cynical, coldly rude. I played with men, made them fall in love unconsciously, and then disappeared without even being touched. To this day, some of them call me. I had become a mercantile bitch and I liked it and it was cruel.
And in the evening I cried that I was like that without knowing how to stop. In the meantime, he was married and I decided to ruin his life. I was taking revenge on his wife for my own stupidity. At one point, when he fell in love with me and started talking about divorcing and proposing marriage to me, I ran away. but this incident gave me even more momentum to be damned. I left with a boy - a good, wonderful boy. With the idea of being the next one. I had found a great tactic, so that they dump me and save me the tearful performances. I cheat and confess to someone I'm sure he'll tell. so I did with this one. I took the beautiful beginning of the relationship, where everything is passion, laughter and romance, and when I felt attached to him, I cheated on him. He understood and did not let me go. I was stubborn to prove to him how disgusting I was and that he didn't need a man like me in life. what did i not do Including when we were outside I got drunk and had sex with his friend in the toilet of the restaurant. Everyone told him that I was just a lower K ****, and I was no different. His mother had told him that she would give up dating him if she continued with me. But he didn't give up on me. He protected me, tried to teach me, talked to me for hours about the way of life I led. He didn't even have sex with me then, he had become something of my mentor. Time passed and little by little, I don't know how I started to share with him, as if he were my older brother. and I kept telling him that we were breaking up, and he was telling me that he would never feel separated from me, even if I said it "officially" And really - I told everyone that we were no longer together, and he was behaving with me as if we have a relationship.
He became the object of ridicule, lost many of his friends because of me, quarreled with his mother ... He was my guardian angel. and little by little, all the love he gave me, all the kindness and understanding he offered me, broke me. We lived on a family basis and I got pregnant. At the discharge, he hugged our daughter and looked at her with that dull male smile that melts us women. There were tears in his eyes and he looked at me and said "Thank you!" Then something died in me forever and I just gave in to happiness. We are not together today because he went abroad and I could not go with him. And despite everything and even though I don't know if he will look for me when he comes home - I am faithful to him. I dedicated myself entirely to my child, to my work and to my happiness. But I realize that even if he doesn't come back to me, that even if he meets some new love there, I will always love him, in the most beautiful and quiet way he loves at all. Many men are looking for me, but I cut them - I don't need lustful caresses, I want and need only that smile of his, which tells me: Life is wonderful! I dedicated myself entirely to my child, to my work, and to my happiness. But I realize that even if he doesn't come back to me, that even if he meets some new love there, I will always love him, in the most beautiful and quiet way he loves at all. Many men are looking for me, but I cut them - I don't need lustful caresses, I want and need only that smile of his, which tells me: Life is wonderful! I dedicated myself entirely to my child, to my work, and to my happiness. But I realize that even if he doesn't come back to me, that even if he meets some new love there, I will always love him, in the most beautiful and quiet way he loves at all. Many men are looking for me, but I cut them - I don't need lustful caresses, I want and need only that smile of his, which tells me: Life is wonderful!
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A story like from a movie ... Sometimes your life is just like that. But the movie is two hours, you get up, go out or shut down the computer. And that's it. As long as this is your life, the way you made it through the choices you made. I hadn't read anything here in a long time that touched me like that. Admiration for the way you feel now!