My Mother Is Mentally And Physically Abused ...

Hello. I am a 14 year old girl. My parents divorced when I was a baby. I will tell you the WHOLE story without sparing the bad moments for me or my mother. I remembered that she had been beating me since I was a child. My earliest memory is probably in 1st or 2nd grade, but I'm not sure. I just can't take it anymore ... My mother is a parent and she takes care of everything and everyone - me and my grandparents and at least 100 other people. Do I understand her hard? is not it is an easy life, but that doesn't mean use me as a suffocator. I remember in 4th grade we had homework in math. I did not understand the task and could not solve it. The memories of the task since then and why I couldn't solve it and how it came to some things are not very clear to me. It was already late, my mother was sitting on the floor opposite the table in Turkish with 2 liters of beer next to her and a glass of beer. she had let the electric stove shine on her back. He got angry that I couldn't solve the task and it started: you are stupid, cattle, I will give your father zero to do whatever he wants with you, if he wants to cut your legs and arms, you will become a bucket and a slut and so on. n. What can I say ... I was patient and waiting for it to end. The next day, a friend helped me with my homework before class started. My mother scolds for grades below 5. For her 4 = 2. I try to learn to help at home with the duties, etc., but I can't study for fear that if I earn something under 5 she will beat me. I'm afraid to go back to my own home! There are times when I have angered her, I admit, but this is NOT the way to beat me and ruin me with her harsh words about me. She said that she did not want to send me home, that if she knew what would be born, she would leave me behind, and so on. My heart aches when I hear these damn words and I can't believe how my friends' parents don't tell them such things and don't beat them and my mother does all this ... At the end of February we went for martenitsas to give to Mr. -you and those in my class. I had an appointment with a D ** and to take some orders from AVON. That day I wanted to talk to my mother about everything that bothered me, including her attitude, because I had accumulated a lot, but my boyfriend came? with us and I did not have the opportunity. I was sullen all the time, but also grateful that I got out of this topic that I was going to raise. Don't get me wrong I like the boyfriend? - He's good to me, but I've been sullen for the rest of my life. We took the martenitsas and set off because the time for orders was approaching. I saw another friend call me, but I didn't have money in my body (I'm on vouchers) and I asked my mother to click from her phone. My mother was angry that in one day I had "cracked" the money in my phone, she was less able to charge it more, etc. I would not call D ***** because I was late. I looked like I was hit in the stomach, I didn't understand why she was calling me for D ** and after I called someone else and I didn't even call, I just clicked. I also hadn't "cracked" the money in 1 day. I finished them the day before we went for the martenitsas. Anyway I went to D .. and. Mother? she was waiting for me to take the orders, but I stupidly cried in front of her! I was uncomfortable and wanted to leave, but the woman did not let me go and we went inside. I told things so that my mother did not look as much like a monster as possible, because I know that sometimes I overdo it, but in this istopi I stick to the facts as much as possible. The woman listened to me and advised me to talk to her, and I nodded and left. Thank God she won't tell my mother I am? roared for her. Another case is today, for example, when I did not hold back and decided to write to you. Yesterday at school I fell badly and my ankle hurt and I had to limp home with the rain. And like any normal teen, I grumbled about how much it hurt and my mother decided to take me to my doctor this morning, but before that, because she didn't trust me, she watched me clean my legs around my ankles and hit me on the back. Not very clever given that it was slippery and something could happen, but I held on to the shower pipe. Honestly, I obviously did something without knowing it and I got nervous and she hit me. He curses me as much as he curses him. On the way to the hospital, where my doctor is, we went through a shop to have coffee. I opened the door, but I didn't know who would come in first - me or her. I hesitated at last. She pushed me viciously inside and looked at me bloodshot. I stood like a statue, but I noticed the cashier looking at it. Then nothing happened. We were silent on the way to and from the hospital until we reached the entrance. She called me not to listen to the nonsense about who I was out with and that she wanted me available in the afternoon and if I anchored to look for me I would give her such a "corner" that ... Then she went to work before 8 in the morning and I locked myself in my room to roar in peace as I wrote to you. These are just a few of the dirty words and fights I've been getting. She even watched me once while my grandmother was beating me, but I can't bear to remember that. but I noticed the cashier looking at her. Then nothing happened. We were silent on the way to and from the hospital until we reached the entrance. She called me not to listen to the nonsense about who I was out with and that she wanted me available in the afternoon and if I anchored to look for me I would give her such a "corner" that ... Then she went to work before 8 in the morning and I locked myself in my room to roar in peace as I wrote to you. These are just a few of the dirty words and fights I've been getting. She even watched me once while my grandmother was beating me, but I can't bear to remember that. but I noticed the cashier looking at her. Then nothing happened. We were silent on the way to and from the hospital until we reached the entrance. She called me not to listen to the nonsense about who I was out with and that she wanted me available in the afternoon and if I anchored to look for me I would give her such a "corner" that ... Then she went to work before 8 in the morning and I locked myself in my room to roar in peace as I wrote to you. These are just a few of the dirty words and fights I've been getting. She even watched me once while my grandmother was beating me, but I can't bear to remember that. We were silent on the way to and from the hospital until we reached the entrance. She called me not to listen to the nonsense about who I was out with and that she wanted me available in the afternoon and if I anchored to look for me I would give her such a "corner" that ... Then she went to work before 8 in the morning and I locked myself in my room to roar in peace as I wrote to you. These are just a few of the dirty words and fights I've been getting. She even watched me once while my grandmother was beating me, but I can't bear to remember that. We were silent on the way to and from the hospital until we reached the entrance. She called me not to listen to the nonsense about who I was out with and that she wanted me available in the afternoon and if I anchored to look for me I would give her such a "corner" that ... Then she went to work before 8 in the morning and I locked myself in my room to roar in peace as I wrote to you. These are just a few of the dirty words and fights I've been getting. She even watched me once while my grandmother was beating me, but I can't bear to remember that.