My Mother

Hello, everyone! The story is a bit long, which I apologize for. My mother and father have been divorced for 10 years. My mother is a person who has a hard time getting along with people. She quarreled with her father / grandfather /, my grandmother, her brother, my father and generally everyone in the family except me. At the age of 14 she started to leave me alone for about 1/2 month, because she changed her partners often (at least in my opinion) and did not share much on this topic. But personally I have met at least 5/6 men after her divorce. She did not attend parent meetings at school. She was not that close mother-daughter. We were more like roommates. We said a maximum of 2 sentences a day, in the rare cases when he was with us. During puberty, I often tried to share with her, sometimes late at night when she came home, sometimes on the phone. And she always blamed me for every problem I ever shared with her in my life. Naturally, this made me stop sharing. During the divorce, she forbade me to communicate with my father and relatives from my father's country. I hadn't spoken to them until I was an adult. My mother currently lives abroad. At will. We are by no means poor. Her father / grandfather / offered her to give her a ready-made business by buying a room and equipment in order to return to Bulgaria. She totally refused. She doesn't have a man next to her at the moment, probably because she can't stand her at all. In a few words, I would describe her as a woman who enjoys making sacrifices and seeking pity. Many times in my life she told me how I shouldn't have been born and how her life would have been so different if she hadn't had to take care of me. How she envied her friends who had no children and lived their lives. I would also describe her as a person who thinks only of himself and his own happiness and does not accept other people's opinions. For myself, I would say that I am a little stubborn but in moderation. This year I am graduating from a university with very good results and all the exams I have taken / I say this because I study at one of the most prestigious universities in Bulgaria. / I find it hard to trust people. I know what I want to do with my life and I dare say I am a perfectionist. My mother and I see each other once a year for about a week at most. And even in these 5-7 days we fight again. He always finds something to criticize me for, be it hair, clothes or behavior. I haven't heard a good word from her in the last few years. He tells absolutely all his close friends how "he supports his daughter as a student", and this is not the case at all. To give an example: My mother: “I am so sorry that I did not buy those glasses / some brand / for BGN 360, I am very angry. Me: Mom, let's go to a restaurant tonight, because I'm tired of eating only cucumbers, avocados and bread. My mother: oh no, it's very expensive, food is not my priority. I repeat, we are by no means poor! She soon told me that I should have been under her control not until I was 18, but until I was 27.