Hi, I'm a boy in 15th-9th grade. So ... I'll start with the fact that when I was 4 years old, ours divorced and I haven't seen my father since. I was small then and I didn't think so much about what happened and I accepted it more or less normally, as if nothing had happened. By 2-3 grade everything was perfect, everyone treated me normally, I was a calm child, I had good grades in school, etc. In 4th grade there was a quarrel between my mother and our relatives and for the summer we moved to a friend of my mother's where I met her son and we became best friends. Then, at the end of the summer, we returned to our apartment and then I started 5th grade. Right at the beginning of the 5th grade, maybe somewhere on the 2nd or 3rd day of school, I heard that my friend died in an accident ... And that's what I experienced. Everyone in the class hated me for absolutely no reason, I hadn't even talked to anyone yet, but I managed to find a friend who moved in the middle of 6th grade and I didn't hear anything from him anymore .. Then again I found a friend from the same class who naturally stopped communicating with me after starting 8th grade because we were both until the end of 7th grade. I've never smoked, drank, or wanted to be in these special teen groups of "friends." The 4th grade teachers stopped liking me for no apparent reason and I had lower grades accordingly - which I didn't particularly care about. In 8th grade I found two friends, of course, one of whom is no longer my friend ... it is only a matter of time before the other happens. I've only had one boyfriend in my life and she was a whore. Since then, I have refused to communicate with girls. I'm in good shape, I think I look normal .. well, at least I'm not very ugly .. I'm not open, arrogant, self-confident and generally do not meet all these special requirements. I've been wasting my time in front of the computer for 2-3 years now, because looking at it, I don't have a better option. I have been depressed for 4 years because of my sedentary lifestyle. I had recently fallen into an "existential" crisis and was even more depressed. But when I see a way out of depression soon, there is no one to share with anyone, no matter what I share with anyone. People obviously care more about themselves and have always thought they are above everyone else. Because of such individuals, I grew up the same - nervous, selfish, greedy, I hope there is something good left in me .. Every day passes super fast, at school I laugh and talk to my friend and when I get home I sit in front of the computer again and so on ... On weekends - all day on the computer. I gave up studying for a long time, maybe because of the teachers who demotivated me and hated me for no reason when I was little - I don't know, at least without studying I somehow earn 4ki and 3ki .. Lately I just started thinking - soon it will be time to start work, to export from us. Then what will I do? I will not "succeed in life" by sitting in front of the house all day. In high school, I would say that there are beautiful girls, but will they catch up with a shy guy like me - of course not, there are other stronger and more open guys, who am I? I mean, I'm straight, my classmate is gay - even he has a boyfriend ... Looking at everyone in my class, he's doing well with anything. Everyone lives a nice, "dreamy" life of mine. life and I sit and complex myself unnecessarily ... I don't have a girlfriend or friends to go out with, talk to, play with. Nor does family, my mother has a job all the time - I'm like home alone. I'm not from a wealthy family, but I don't think that matters much. I don't see a future for me with this lifestyle, what can I do?
1 theirishayk answered
. Hi dude, I think look for a good psychologist, It's just that something has affected your child's psyche since he was a child. People who grow up without fathers are like that, more shy, more shy. I know it from personal experience.