My Friend Left Me For No Reason ..

Hello (and please do not comment with nonsense that I am sensitive). I had a girlfriend until recently, who is 54 years old, and I am 34 years younger than her. In fact, we have been together since I was born, because she is a family friend and she breastfed me (my mother did not have breast milk). Well, from an early age he taught me to know and appreciate the beauty of the female body. He told me that when I grew up he would marry me and we would always be together. It was oral for me when I was 8, and when I became a sixth grader we did it for the first time. I never liked the beds at my age, I just wanted to be with the woman of my life. I ran away from school and went to them while her husband was at work, I even wanted her to be my lady at the ball, but she firmly refused me and over time she started to pull herself together, to talk about how old she was, etc. I was jealous of her husband, because they no longer even slept in one bed. One day she just called me and told me she never wanted to see me again and that had to end. What do you think could be the reason, because I can't live without it. I don't want anyone else. Help me. PS She told me that she had a son whom she gave up for adoption because he was stupid.