My First Friend

The Story

Hello, I am a 15-year-old girl who wants to tell her story and ask for advice ... I have had a serious friend for 5 months, with whom everything is going perfectly. I myself am modest, but, yes, I can say that judging by his appearance, character, mind and hobbies - it can be said that he is much smarter. Here's my story ... he had initially told me he liked me, but I wasn't sure how he felt .. But, half a year ago, this guy became nice to me ... after I told him I was feeling something, we quarreled about very big nonsense, but every time I saw him something was turning in my stomach ... I apologized to him, telling him I missed him and we've been together ever since. If you ask me if he loves me - yes. He himself told and proved it to me ... He drove sleepless nights because of me, he cleaned my tears, telling me that he loves me ... He was always by my side and honestly I didn't think I could fall in love until I was 15, but here it is. Anyway, I spent 4 hours a day with him, everything was perfect (and still is, for which I thank him), this guy changed my whole life for the better. My grades improved, the relationship with my parents strengthened, I even introduced him to them and they said that he was really nice ... However, for some time (1-2 months), he started to become more intimate ... he did not allow to touch his penis, but he did his best on my "kitten", even if it meant half an hour of moaning and gasping. a few weeks ago, however, I insisted on thanking him for absolutely everything by offering him a whistle. He, of course, as a 15-year-old boy, accepted. All the time I was just thinking about it, I wanted him to come sooner to see what it is .. but the day came, he asked me if I would start and I agreed, I took off his pants without him even worrying (obviously a matter of trust), I went downstairs, kissed his belly and put it in my mouth ... 5 seconds then, he pulled me up, told me he couldn't do it and that he didn't want to make me sick, hugged me and told me that he loved me ... Anyway, I didn't feel sick, but Apparently something really happened to him ... Well, for 2-3 months, so, 1-2-3 times a week we talk about sex ... He knew I wasn't ready, he told me he was ready, that he he wants not because he will "sting", but because he will be with me and he said that we will do it only when I want ...

The question is there - do I want him enough? Literally, I want him all the time, I imagine sometimes how we do it, how nice it will be and how the boy actually is, what I love is on top and I really want it very much ... also, this will be just the first time, there will be many others, more special, but I also feel that I want it to be because I really love it .. ( yes, judge me, I'm 15 and I love the boy of my dreams ..) .. But, comes No-to. I'm kind of scared ... not of the pain, and I don't know, I take it for something pretty big, like, not that I'm not ready and I'm not sure what it will be, I don't know what I'm afraid of (most girls will understand). I just want you to clarify ... have you felt something like this and has it gone from fear to complete desire? not from the pain, and I don't know, I take it for something quite big, as if I'm not ready and I'm not sure what it will be, I don't know what I'm afraid of (most girls will understand). I just want you to clarify ... have you felt something like this and has it gone from fear to complete desire? not from the pain, and I don't know, I take it for something quite big, as if I'm not ready and I'm not sure what it will be, I don't know what I'm afraid of (most girls will understand). I just want you to clarify ... have you felt something like this and has it gone from fear to complete desire?

Last Updated
August 17, 2020
Author:
inna_cute

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