My Father Treats Me Disgustingly

The Story

Hello! I am a girl of fourteen, I will soon be fifteen. My problem is this: Ever since I was a child (preschool), my father has treated me like an animal. I do not lack anything (material). I know very well that he insults me and has his own way of showing it to me, but this is definitely not the way. The constant insults and screams at me upset my psyche very seriously. To this day, I develop a bad habit. I play with my hair all the time, but not in the way you think, I tear it. I read in detail on this question and in most of the answers the terms "nerves", "mental disorder" and the like were present. My mother keeps asking me why my room is full of hair and thinks it's years old and I just have to wean. But how do I unlearn when I'm under constant stress, because of him and I can't stop doing it. CONTINUOUSLY. He yells at me for absolutely insignificant things and treats my mother like garbage. She is from a village, he is from the city, but both have only secondary education. My father rises to be the most intelligent in the family, although he is not. This is the reason why he addresses me with epithets such as "Sheep", "idiot", "l * yno", "idiot", "fool", etc. I finished with a full six, took the exams with over 90 points and entered the most elite language school in the area, but this did not impress him much. He bragged in front of his colleagues, but at home again "You are very simple and stupid". Today, just before I wrote in this forum, I was screaming because I had made a shake in the blender, but with the expressed milk. There was so much of that damn strained milk and he could easily make his own garlic sauce, but he insulted me nonetheless. I still remember the years when I was five or four. One day after my childhood, such a scandal arose because I did not take part in the classes and the like, and he spoke such harsh words to me that I will remember them for the rest of my life: "IF YOU AND YOUR BROTHER HAVE NOT BEEN BORN, YOU ARE THE SAME LIKE YOUR MOTHER ...". So he caught me at the age of 3 and with screams taught me to count and write. I was much more advanced with the material than the other kids, math was the most basic thing (even more so now), not to mention the languages. It was extremely boring in class there, listening to absurdly elementary things, and I wasn't particularly interested. And all this, as I said, caused serious damage to my psyche and health. In addition to the bad habit, I was annoyed by the stupidity of others and became a perfectionist. Crying for 5.50 ... Others wonder at me, and that's because my father always required me to be more than others and to be perfect, and if I'm not, "You're good for nothing!" And the worst thing is that when he gets mad at me, he gets angry with me and doesn't talk to me. He earns everything for us. My friends think this is not normal. I know he loves me, he fights for me and it's hard for him, but it's even harder for me. My mother had decided to divorce, but she stayed here because of me, because she knows that at this age, I need her the most. I look forward to your answers! he struggles for me and it's hard for him, but it's even harder for me. My mother had decided to divorce, but she stayed here because of me, because she knows that at this age, I need her the most. I look forward to your answers! he struggles for me and it's hard for him, but it's even harder for me. My mother had decided to divorce, but she stayed here because of me, because she knows that at this age, I need her the most. I look forward to your answers!

Last Updated
November 10, 2020
Author:
sonjaxxtv

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