My Conscience Is Killing Me

   Get a pet. I think you will become attached to it and you will not think and you will start to enjoy the little funny creatures. It's nice to have a pet at home, it's relaxing, and you're not so lonely

   I won't ask you why you did that. You have probably been physically and / or mentally aggressive and have inflicted it on the animal. If you haven't done so before, start doing good for the animals. For example - put food and water on stray kittens or enroll as a volunteer in a society for the protection of animals and nature. You may have hurt an animal when you were a small child, but now that you are an adult, you have the opportunity to help thousands. Don't bother anymore. Try to forgive yourself. I think that when you start caring for animals in need, you will atone for your guilt and feel better. Success!

   Nothing helps. I was 13 years old, I love cats very much, I was coming home from my friend's dpma and I saw a little red kitten, I called him and he came, I hugged him and took him home. I fed him, watered him, played with him, my mother came home and scolded me to immediately remove him otherwise .... And what to do my mother is bad and carries out her threats, I let him in the neighbors' yard he came back , I carried him further down the street and threw him over the fence of a house and ran home after me again and I had to kick him and scare him to run away. I hit him very loudly, the feeling of guilt and the fact that I did not protect him haunts me and to this day I am already 32 years old. What have I done over the years, I fed stray cats, I took them home, but the memory of that little pathetic kitten doesn't blame me for anything.

   I, on the other hand, will ask you why you did so. It is not normal for a child, especially a girl, to be cruel to an animal. The feeling is called empathy. This may have something to do with your present and it may matter. There is nothing more you can do for this animal. At least it doesn't hurt if you don't want to help. The advice from the above post is very adequate.

   I still hope that it was not intended to harm ... I killed a chick years ago in the village. I was about 6-7 years old and I played with him. There was a small room with a low ceiling, which was used for a lunch break for the summer, I was cooler there. And I threw my chick up and hit him in the ceiling. And I definitely realized what I had done. I threw him in the outside toilet, climbed a tree to hide from my parents, grandparents, and broke into a roar sitting on a tree branch. When they found me there, I just kept saying I was a chick killer. So they had to explain to me that it was an accident and I even pay so much as my conscience makes me suffer from what I did. However, this did not stop me later in life. I have a special connection with all living beings. I guess they feel positive energy and good intentions in me, because they also pay special attention to me. For example, a bear behaved like a good puppy in my presence. Cats attack me with kisses on first dates without knowing me. The dogs invite me to make friends and play, you know, when they start tapping their paws with light jumps to the left and to the right. Including my sister and I once came across a dungeon, the mother immediately joined the "disappear, I have children and bite" mode in front of my sister, but when I stood in front of her (I was afraid for my sister, I was so instinctive) (the snake) seemed to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ... For example, a bear behaved like a good puppy in my presence. Cats attack me with kisses on first dates without knowing me. The dogs invite me to make friends and play, you know, when they start tapping their paws with light jumps to the left and to the right. Including my sister and I once came across a dungeon, my mother immediately joined the "disappear, I have children and bite" mode in front of my sister, but when I stood in front of her (I was afraid for my sister, I was so instinctive) (the snake) seemed to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ... For example, a bear behaved like a good puppy in my presence. Cats attack me with kisses on first dates without knowing me. The dogs invite me to make friends and play, you know, when they start tapping their paws with light jumps to the left and to the right. Including my sister and I once came across a dungeon, the mother immediately joined the "disappear, I have children and bite" mode in front of my sister, but when I stood in front of her (I was afraid for my sister, I was so instinctive) (the snake) seemed to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ... you know when they start tapping their paws with slight jumps to the left and to the right. Including my sister and I once came across a dungeon, my mother immediately joined the "disappear, I have children and bite" mode in front of my sister, but when I stood in front of her (I was afraid for my sister, I was so instinctive) (the snake) seemed to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ... you know when they start tapping their paws with slight jumps to the left and to the right. Including my sister and I once came across a dungeon, the mother immediately joined the "disappear, I have children and bite" mode in front of my sister, but when I stood in front of her (I was afraid for my sister, I was so instinctive) (the snake) seemed to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ... that I am so brave) she (the snake) seems to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ... that I am so brave) she (the snake) seems to calm down and shrink and calm down. I want to say that you can have such or a similar relationship with them, but you have to forgive yourself for what happened first. Still ... I hope there was really no intent in your act ...

   From the author: At the moment I am very attached to animals, sometimes even too much and I get sick when an article about violence appears, I get depressed, but then the feeling of guilt increases. I have pets, they are everything to me, I want to be able to adopt many more to save them from the conditions in the shelters and the streets, but I just don't have the opportunity. What I did as a child is from childhood, I didn't really think about things, but that doesn't mean I can forgive myself. I just love animals too much to do it. It may seem like crazy, but I can't leave drowning flies in my dog's water, I'm trying so hard to help living things. Thanks for the advice of all who responded.

   From the author: At the moment I am very attached to animals, sometimes even too much and I get sick when an article about violence appears, I get depressed, but then the feeling of guilt increases. I have pets, they are everything to me, I want to be able to adopt many more to save them from the conditions in the shelters and the streets, but I just don't have the opportunity. What I did as a child is from childhood, I didn't really think about things, but that doesn't mean I can forgive myself. I just love animals too much to do it. It may seem like crazy, but I can't leave drowning flies in my dog's water, I'm trying so hard to help living things. Thanks for the advice of all who responded.

   I don't know exactly what animal and how you harmed me, but you have to keep in mind that millions of chickens, pigs, calves and others from the meat industry are killed every day to be put in the store. I'm not a vegetarian, but I've watched videos about the fate of these animals and it's not pleasant at all (especially abnormal in China, where a 200-300 kg pig lives in a 1.5x1.5 meter cage, and gives birth to young there, there they suckle, "connect" with their mother, etc.). So in this regard, conscience is a bit of a relative thing ... Most people do not care that they eat suffering animals when they buy meat from the store. From the meat I try to eat mostly fish (not that it does not suffer, but I perceive it as somehow more distant from man, while the pig, for example, is a mammal like the dog and man and is also as smart as a dog).

   You're crazy! And how should people working as butchers feel? Do you remember that someone kills animals to fill the shop windows with meat and minced meat? What can pathologists and surgeons say, they cut human flesh. Your conscience is your need, you need it. A guilty conscience usually arises when you have violated your moral norms, norms that you have outlined around you, boundaries that you set for yourself. In fact, one is obliged to observe only the limits written in the legislation of the country in which one lives. And really being a butcher is a job, not a sin. Being a surgeon and cutting off a human leg is a job, not a sin. These transgressions that you blame yourself for are your fabrications, as if someone were sitting there blaming themselves for stepping on an ant or killing a house mouse. I don't understand how a street kitten is more valuable than a mouse or a cockroach in your home, for example, aren't they equal animals to nature? Of course, they are equal for nature, but in your imaginary morality kittens, dogs and chickens are more important animals than all the others, think about whether this is not your fault. Man either loves all animals or not, and you love animals of a certain species and raise cats and dogs in a cult.

   Every sin ceases to be so when one regrets what he has done. When it changes. We cannot change the past, we can change the present and the future, however. When we think about the past, we waste energy. Energy that we can invest in changing the present and the future. Furthermore, it is no coincidence that children do not have the same legal responsibility as adults. Because neither thought nor control of emotions are well developed. Consciousness is at a lower level. Animals also harm each other. Without intent, just a momentary reaction in certain circumstances. Otherwise, every person regrets something, everyone has ever harmed someone. But it is unnecessary to waste your energy on self-blame. This is not a "redemption" of sin, this is another mistake you make. One day you will regret it too. To Number 3: And how could you defend him in front of your 13-year-old mother? You could not defend yourself. And you kicked him enough to run away, didn't you mutilate him or kill him? You couldn't watch him all your life, you did him good by scaring him - to be afraid of people, because if he's not afraid, he becomes easy prey for freaks. Cats find food easily - the villages are full of mice, there are also field rodents, in the cities only the restaurants you don't know how much food they throw in the containers, and it's not spoiled, but just dried for example, or something like that ... For dogs it's more -It's hard to find food, but cats climb everywhere. One more thing I want to tell you: You deserve a bow! For being a good person and staying that way, even though your mother wasn't, as far as I understand. You should definitely be proud of yourself.

   Everyone did it. Go volunteer in the Wildlife and you will atone for your sin. Life goes on. Good luck.