From the title you understand what it is about and what my problem is. Please let the editors publish my story, which is very important to me. I am a 14-year-old girl studying at a language school, for which I worked hard last year. Ever since 5th grade, I have always been insulted and ridiculed by my classmates. I entered this high school, I expected that things would change, that I would have a different future, but here I was mistaken and very much so. Instead of a better future in which I feel calm and confident, I feel extremely weak and without a drop of self-confidence. I don't have friends, I'm alone during breaks, I don't have anyone to go out with on weekends and holidays, I haven't had a friend until now, I feel hellishly lonely at all. I have a feeling, that my ugly past will always haunt me and I will never be able to be myself and be like the other happy girls my age. I have goals, dreams, strong grades, I'm an excellent student, but I'm not a jerk. I like to write, read, do fashion, but I can't fit in my class. I don't want to move either, because as you already know, I worked hard to get here. Besides, as a child I changed 3 schools, and nothing has changed, it even got worse and worse for me. I'm not ugly, but I'm not one of the most beautiful. They often make fun of my appearance. In fact, I am short, with brown, straight medium-long hair, thin, without glasses, splints or the like. I think the problem comes only from my appearance. But I may be wrong. That's why I plan to make some changes with myself. My question is if I change my appearance, will the insults and ridicule stop or will this be a new reason for their ridicule? I can no longer withstand all this stress, especially since my lessons are long and difficult, and I am terribly confused. Please advise me what to do and how to proceed ..
1 beeelzebub666 answered
The most important thing for you right now is to find friends or at least people with whom you can communicate. This will give you the confidence you lack at the moment. You can find such people in interest clubs, sports clubs, dance clubs, music and art clubs, etc. In general, concentrate on finding an environment of acquaintances. These people will be your support, with the help of which you will perceive the rest of the world more positively. This will lead to a positive change in your behavior, which will cause a corresponding change in the behavior of others towards you.