From the title it is clear what catharsis I have fallen into. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year now, he is wonderful to say the least, a dream for every woman both visually and mentally. Things developed quite quickly between us, because we both liked each other a lot even before we went to an official meeting. He is kind, good, honest, constantly compliments me, that I am very beautiful, that I look wonderful, gives me gifts, takes me on vacations / walks, spends 101% of his time only with me, literally puts me above all and everyone and that makes me believe that he really loves me very much. That's how the good part ends here ... In the whole thing I feel like the offshoot of our relationship, I constantly fantasize about a boy I met 2 years ago at sea. Then nothing happened between us, because we met one night, and he had to go to the other. Otherwise he lives in Bulgaria, but in another city quite far from mine. We are still writing to each other and he repeatedly invites me to visit him, and I want to go more and more, and sometimes I even unconsciously think of a version through my friend that I have to go to work in the city in question and met the other boy. It is also clear from the title that he is black and I deliberately do not mention him anywhere else because I do not want to emphasize this. I'm really curious and I really want to sleep with him, he's beautiful and very sexy, full passionate lips, snow-white straight teeth, his body is like a magazine .... sometimes in the evening when I'm alone I masturbate and think about him, I imagine how it is on me and I just end up in seconds ... I don't know if this is some serious sin or something wrong, but I really want to fuck, just thinking about it and getting wet to the knees. However, I am very upset about my friend, he does not deserve such a thing at all, only if he realizes that even thinking about such a thing he will not want to hear more about me .. On the other hand, I say to myself Well, so what, I will do sex with a black man 2.3 times, my desire will pass and I will be with my boyfriend again, it's not who knows what, and if I hide well I won't hurt anyone and I will be the happiest in the end. Maybe this will be sobering for me and I will start to care even more about my friend, and I care about him, he is important to me and I love him, maybe from what has been written so far it is not very clear, but yes, I love him. I want to hear what people who read this forum would tell me and I want to hear the negative and everything from which I would learn some lessons and advice. Please
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Only when you smell a nigger will you dry up