Money When I Urinate And After, And He ...

The Story

Hello!!! I am an adult. Even much more than that. When I found out that my friend was looking at others and maybe he was cheating on me, I stopped sleeping with him and we broke up. And not just for that reason, but for many others. He just wasn't my true love, though I tried to keep everything. Then it so happened that I found my friend in life, but shortly after that I went to a gynecologist and found out that I had gonorrhea. It turned out to be from the former. He often peed, at one point he started to smell bad, I didn't want to get close to him. And I had no symptoms. I was cured, but I was so startled by this incident that my desire for sex disappeared a bit. After 2-3 months I had a runny nose and went to the gynecologist again. I had an inflammation. I guessed where he might be from. Not from my boyfriend, of course, he's a very supportive boy. I was healed again. No problems since then. But I was still scared about it. We started doing it only with a condom. Somehow I didn't feel like my friend was by my side during these difficult times. He was just saying you're fine, and that's it. Maybe that's why I stepped back a little. And now because he wants so much without a condom and I pleased him, I woke up yesterday with a burning sensation underneath. And when I pee. I wash with chamomile and then take another shower with another gel. It subsides, but I don't know if it will pass completely. And I'm afraid to go to the gynecologist again. Still, if it doesn't take 1-2 days, I'll go, because my health is the most important thing, but why it happens, maybe I still haven't figured out exactly how to take care of myself. We cannot be alone here. Neither do they. That's why every week or less, lately once a month a mutual friend invites us to visit. But after the act I don't take a shower. It's kind of awkward in someone else's home. And I think that's it. That I sleep there at night and then I leave, and this thing stays in me, unwashed. And that's where these infections come from. And when I tell my friend, he just says don't think about it now or that it would pass me by. And he seems to be looking for this conversation to pass faster. Everything between us is great, but I don't feel that he is worried, that he wants to protect me. Although I have to be careful, not someone else. After all, not to tell me that he wants without a condom as he knows ... Or at least as much as he wants us to have sex to provide me with conditions or I do not know, because after sex he will wash in the sink, what about me As with women, it's twice as scary down there. And I'm so scared that I don't even have sex anymore. And he told me last night, not knowing what's been in my head lately, of course, that I no longer push him as I used to and I don't want him so much, and that sometimes I even pull at him. Well, yes, but not because I don't like or love him, but because of the fear of these stories and because I associate this pleasure with these unpleasant experiences. Please someone give me advice and support me in some way, I apologize if I have spelling mistakes, I'm a little upset as I write this ...

Last Updated
October 13, 2020
Author:
mia_gerson

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