Mistress - The Second Violin

The Story

Hello, I just want to share with the hope that it will make me feel better. A year ago I met a 30-year-old man who has had a girlfriend for a long time - 8 or more years. They have no children, they live together. I find it very difficult to like someone, but when that happens, the work becomes scary. And he's everything I want from a man - we talk about absolutely all kinds of topics, he's funny, handsome ... well, you can't tell him a button. Our sex is very passionate, we fit in perfectly, but he told me in plain text that he doesn't want anything more and that ruins me. It was different in the beginning, it gave me some hope, but then I thought about it. Does not love me. I know what I'm doing is not right, but can I tell myself who to fall in love with and who not? After meeting him, I'm emotionally broken, so the last time I refused to see him, I explained that I needed someone to love me, not just rolling in bed. And yet I do not stop tormenting myself ... Why did she, with what did she win it, with what am I worse than her? Why is she still with someone she's cheating on? He told me that they had problems, and I saw them together - they behave like acquaintances. I am terribly angry with him and even more with myself that I managed to fall in love with the most inappropriate one again. And this torments me terribly - I can't study like people (I'm a student), I don't go out, and when I go out, only he is in my mind. I see so many people in love and I feel even worse. I do not know what to do... I am terribly angry with him and even more with myself that I managed to fall in love with the most inappropriate one again. And this torments me terribly - I can't study like people (I'm a student), I don't go out, and when I go out, only he is in my mind. I see so many people in love and I feel even worse. I do not know what to do... I am terribly angry with him and even more with myself that I managed to fall in love with the most inappropriate one again. And this torments me terribly - I can't study like people (I'm a student), I don't go out, and when I go out, only he is in my mind. I see so many people in love and I feel even worse. I do not know what to do...

Last Updated
July 29, 2020
Author:
mashaa1818

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