I am 35 years old. I have been divorced for 2 years. I have been in a relationship with a married man for 1 year. I'm crazy about him, I really love him, I've never felt this way in my life. No man has treated me like he has. I don't want him to divorce, I don't want to live with him, I just want it never to end. I never thought I could be a mistress but it is a fate, a punishment, a very great punishment. I can't do without him and he can't do without me. For 1 year he has not missed a day in which he has not seen me at least once. I am happy and unhappy at the same time. I know I have to leave, to leave him, but I can't, believe me I can't. What to do...
1 smithsonianmag answered
This is really a great torture. And as time goes on, it gets worse and worse, because it can't be yours. And I have been in your position and my advice is: enjoy and be grateful for those moments that you are experiencing now, because sooner or later you will separate, regardless of whose initiative - his or yours. I know you're unhappy that you can't be together all the time, but maybe it's better that way, because if you're constantly together as husband and wife, you'll get bored and you'll find yourself in the role of his wife. So row with a handful of this love that gushes from your heart and I hope you do not remain disappointed, as I remained.