Message To "my Father"

The Story

My story will be quite long, so I appreciate everyone who has read it to the end. In fact, this is 1 letter I haven't given yet and I want to share it here first so I know that at least someone knows my story and how I feel. Why are you torturing everyone? Why do you make them suffer? Maybe you want them to experience what you are experiencing or you are just trying to make someone more unhappy than you so that you know that you are not the most unhappy and pathetic person in the world. There is no way to get it! Think carefully about how far you must have come, how much damage you have done, how mean and evil you have been to read something like this written by your child. This is nowhere to be found! Apparently you are trying to kill complexes from the past and present yourself as someone dominant over the others, that you are the greatest and most knowledgeable of all. Why do you need this attitude towards us? How did we deserve it? By watching and feeding you for years or by trying to behave normally with you until you make it impossible? You must have already said or thought about your "millions" with whom you watched us, with the apartments you leave us, etc.

Good! You're right, but that's in the past. People do not live in the past, they do not eat in the past, they do not pay bills in the past, they live in the present, which is here and now. In your opinion, everything you did, the "thousands of money" you spent, was so much that now you have to have everything ready. Yes but no! Don't make excuses that you can't find a job, because it's not normal for a person not to be able to find a job for so many years, if he wants to. The thing is, you don't have one. All people are designed to be comfortable and it's obvious to you, so why would you want to go to work? We have a * (mom) who will go all day to clean. She will bring you cigarettes and alcohol every day, you will be able to eat and live well. Normal people, or rather normal parents, put their children first, but you look at cigarettes and alcohol first. For most of the time, you only think about whether you will have cigarettes today or why * (mom) didn't bring them to you. I don't know, maybe because she will think first about her children, whether they have something to eat today, whether they have something to go to school with. All you do is inflict mental harassment on all of us. You try to drive us crazy (and quite successfully), to always blame us, and you always do it. No, you're not! You're probably wondering why we treat you like that. How do you want us to behave when there is a scandal, shouting, insulting every day, you can even drive a person crazy and you do. Your slight hints that we are doing something wrong, your staring sly looks, your mean arrogant attitude and your infinitely pessimistic attitude ...

Why * (my sister) behaves like that with you? It is not normal for a father to tell his child how his mother will not go home, how she was the lowest whore and that she is to blame for everything and that the child stands and agrees with insults for someone who raised him with so much love. and care, always putting it first. How would you behave if your father said these things about your mother? If you don't know, you can ask (my sister) and leave me, because I'm smart enough not to get attached to you in abnormal scenes and psychic attacks, of which (my sister) is too young and does not know how to ignore. Why don't you think about what you did alone and not with the help of your parents? What did you do to be able to speak like a self-determined boss? Everything you have achieved is thanks to them. You managed to buy a house and sell it, you managed to buy a pub and sell it, you managed to buy thousands of things that I probably haven't even heard of, and you probably sold them too. Your great self-esteem is unfounded in vain. What gives you the right to mentally harass us all?

How did we deserve it, I ask again? Your own ideal and morality is so limited that you don't even have one. You are deprived of any missions or plans in life, no restraints or responsibilities. How do you expect someone to love, appreciate or even tolerate you when you don't deserve it. Have you ever wondered how long you expect this same story to continue? Is this story over and will it be tragic? If so, think about what the tragic end will be. Everyone aims to leave something behind after they die. What will you remember besides the material? I don't think anyone wants to die unloved, but apparently you went there. You are not holy water and you have no right to look for faults in others. One chooses what one wants to be and what others think of him as! One is responsible for one's own actions and must be prepared to bear the consequences. Only you are to blame for what you have become now - selfish, impudent, arrogant, conceited, unhappy, pessimistic alcoholic. Each of these words defines you, and even if you deny it, deep down you know it's true. Judge me for this, that I protect my mother and what I call family. I don't mind and anything you say against me won't change anything.

Don't make excuses that you can't show your love because you did it for me, but unfortunately (my sister) won't experience the same thing I once felt for you. I loved you, and what I feel now cannot be described in words. I don't know what has changed, but you are not the same person you used to be. Your countless attempts at change never run out and you always expect to be forgiven, but each time it gets harder and harder. I wish you to find the right path in life and not too late to realize your mistakes, because everyone will hate you and die in the most cruel way for a person - alone. Don't make excuses that you can't show your love because you did it for me, but unfortunately (my sister) won't experience the same thing I once felt for you. I loved you, and what I feel now cannot be described in words. I don't know what has changed, but you are not the same person you used to be. Your countless attempts at change never run out and you always expect to be forgiven, but each time it gets harder and harder. I wish you to find the right path in life and not too late to realize your mistakes, because everyone will hate you and die in the cruelest way for a person - alone.

Don't make excuses that you can't show your love because you did it for me, but unfortunately (my sister) won't experience the same thing I once felt for you. I loved you, and what I feel now cannot be described in words. I don't know what has changed, but you are not the same person you used to be. Your countless attempts at change never run out and you expect to always be forgiven, but each time it gets harder and harder. I wish you to find the right path in life and not too late to realize your mistakes, because everyone will hate you and die in the most cruel way for a person - alone. I don't know what has changed, but you are not the same person you used to be. Your countless attempts at change never run out and you always expect to be forgiven, but each time it gets harder and harder. I wish you to find the right path in life and not too late to realize your mistakes, because everyone will hate you and die in the most cruel way for a person - alone. I don't know what has changed, but you are not the same person you used to be. Your countless attempts at change never run out and you always expect to be forgiven, but each time it gets harder and harder. I wish you to find the right path in life and not be too late to realize your mistakes, because everyone will hate you and die in the most cruel way for a person - alone.

Last Updated
August 17, 2020
Author:
ovi8

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