Hello! I am a young woman of almost 22 years and I am currently a student. I've never had a boyfriend since I was little, I'm a virgin and I don't even have my first kiss. The problem is that for 22 years I could not fall in love or even like a boy or a man. And I look good, I'm smart and I'm raised in a wonderful family, which I'm ashamed to deal with these problems. In general, the male sex does not seem to attract me either romantically or sexually. Many friends misunderstood me and offered me a relationship, but I kept cutting them off. We go out with friends, I have all women's interests, we go shopping, beautician, to choose make-up and nail polish, but when it comes to boys they notice everyone on the street from afar, stare at him, discuss him, call me see right, excite and by the time I find out what they're showing me, he's gone because I've been watching the bench, the woman, the dog, the child, but not the boy / man. Few men (Hollywood actors, or some very handsome and well-groomed and completely without beards, mustaches and hair) I like in the face and I go to curl up that I want them, but when I see them naked in shorts or swimsuits and I am very repulsed by the male body, trying to look at him sexually. Everything bothers me - from the muscles, through the chin, hair, chin, the fact that there are no breasts, but they are so flat and with different nipples than women, the lack of enough curves and tenderness, broad shoulders, high height, thick voice, rough lips, the penis, male manners, beer bellies, but also tight bellied bellies. On the other hand, many times I look at women, I am aroused by the female body, I liked a few, but bigger than me, at 25, 30, 40, 50. In the latter case it is much more serious, I also had feelings and for 3 years now I have not passed, as well as a very strong desire for sexual contact with the woman in question. She is single, but she tells me she can't imagine being with a woman, and I love her so much. She, like the others I liked, are all the same type, who are exactly hetero-beautiful, sexy, charming, coquettish, flirting with men and, accordingly, with zero chance. And I'm like that myself, I look very good, fine and attractive, with a sexy figure and beautiful, but obviously not heterosexual. I don't know what I am anymore, I'm almost convinced that I'm a lesbian and I wonder what will happen to my life? Will I live alone all my life, will I die a virgin, because I can't force myself to be with a man, and so I dreamed of a family and children as a child. And I can't be with a woman, because other lesbians are all kind of men, or hypersensitive and labile weak women at the other extreme. And I like women classic in the middle, style Julia Roberts, Kate Winslet, Jennifer Aniston, etc. There are hardly many like me, both to feel normal and feminine strong woman, and to like women ..
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You look a lot like me. I don't know what it is, but I'm older than you and I haven't had sex with a man, I have no desire. Being friends - yes, I can love too, but sex - no. I like men who are not in the typical notions with big muscles, super masculine, but on the contrary, I like physically weaker men, charming, emotional ... I am not a lesbian, nor do I like sexually any other new genders. I just accepted, I don't care about the lack of sex, I don't compare myself with others, no one can force me to have sex. Unfortunately, this is not understood by many men, but ... here arises the question "Is there a friendship between a man and a woman, if the woman is not ugly." My answer is in time, this is the thing that weighs on me that my friendship with men ended badly.