It's as if I wrote this story. Only where I am a year older than you, but I think and live the way you describe - lonely, uncommunicative, without real friends. There was a period of weeks when no one called me on the phone. I want things to change and I to live like the others, but somehow it doesn't happen - everything else is like a distant dream somewhere in the future. I also have fear and panic for the future that I will be alone and without friends for a life wasted. I'm already a student, but what of that, nothing changes - I live as a prisoner (that's what I'm used to). Everyone has parties, they have a private life, and I don't. Words like company, friends, discos and parties are foreign to me and "Chinese". On Student I soaked at home as punished, now on holidays as always again. I don't know why this happens to me, why people don't want me. Over the years, I had the least money in the class - that might have depressed me. I also heard terrible things from people about me, it also shut me down. I even communicate a little bit now, I avoid human crowds, I'm sorry I became a student, it's not life. I want to escape somewhere to work. I deliberately do not mention girls here, because there is hardly anyone who will like me without friends, I am not one of the rich, I have all the disadvantages, and I do not know what to say. I feel how most people treat me badly. And I always try to help, but I don't know any other attitude. And the concept of "new" people is not familiar to me either - I grew up in a small town where everyone knows each other. Will I have to go to another country to feel something or not? All my life I felt superfluous in the world, and I don't know what to do. Things which would make me happy are sorry the money started. To the author: you are 18. And yet in your next year different things will happen to you. Next is a candidate student campaign, where, unlike me, you can change your life afterwards. There are many people where the students have changed them and I hope you meet good people there. And even if you don't become a student, you have a great choice for your life - you can start a job, try to work abroad. And what you don't have to do (which I do) is think about the past. Just look ahead And even if you don't become a student, you have a great choice for your life - you can start a job, try to work abroad. And what you don't have to do (which I do) is think about the past. Just look ahead And even if you don't become a student, you have a great choice for your life - you can start a job, try to work abroad. And what you don't have to do (which I do) is think about the past. Just look ahead
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You are not crazy! Don't keep underestimating yourself, to me you're just a lonely, misunderstood teenager. Calm down, and my years in high school did not go very well .. even the last 2 years, I was almost non-stop in us, my whole class went out for coffee, no one called me - and for no reason. I just went through this period, I didn't think much of it. There is no one who wants to know you because of yourself, because most people are superficial. Don't shut yourself in, find another activity, if fitness is no longer an option anymore ... And in general, in the future, try to be more open to the new people in your life, communicate more, even if it is difficult for you.