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Hello, I am a 17-year-old girl who wants to share what bothers him, what weighs on his heart. For a while I was wondering if I should share my story here on this site and here I will publish my story. The story begins like this. Once upon a time there was a prince with a white horse and a princess blown away on a white horse. I'm not kidding, this is not how my story begins. I am a teenager looking for love (so to speak), waiting, looking and so on. Like I said, I'm 17, every single 17-year-old girl hopes to meet a boy who will make her feel different, make her happy, drive butterflies in her stomach and keep fluttering, and so on. And here that I met a boy, exactly I didn't meet him, but I saw him while he was coming home (he lives opposite us) and I liked him a hell of a lot, he was walking with his dog and I noticed with the peripheral vision, that there is someone and I turned I saw him and naively I liked him. I didn't know his name or how big he was, absolutely nothing just the boy who lives next door to us. I didn't know who to ask to tell me what it was called. And one day, when I was walking in the neighborhood with a friend, we saw him and they greeted each other, I was shocked, after we passed him I did not wait and immediately asked her what her name was, how big it was and so on. Let the boy in question do X. When I came home later and didn't wait and immediately looked for him on the social network, I got scared and asked for his friendship and that's where it all started. When he confirmed my friendship, of course I looked at his whole profile and I liked him even more, I wouldn't say I fell in love, but I fell for him. Shame began, I was ashamed to write him anything, even a hello or something else (kid (AND TO NOTE THEN I WAS STILL 16.)) And somehow we wrote to each other several times in 2 conversations, I repeated that we live in close proximity and so on. To this day we write to each other. Last summer of 2012 we wrote to him quite often, when I saw him I was ashamed to say hello to him and sometimes I passed him without saying anything just looking at him and smiling, well, he was smiling at me, congratulating, etc. I think about him all the time. For the past 1 and a half years, I had other boyfriends, but every time I saw him I somehow felt the butterflies. I broke up, got together with different guys (they weren't many for the past 1 and a half years) and now that I was alone, somehow I started thinking about him even more, before I thought about him, but now everything is x2. Recently, before the new year, we had written to each other and it was about sex (meaning that we both have a desire for each other) the same night when we wrote to each other, nothing happened. But after our conversation a few days later we had met in front of our homes and somehow it became quite, to put it mildly, an attraction. And when I wrote to him the other day to wish him a happy new year, we wrote some things like that again, sexual allusions to call them that. And what happens in the evening, when I was coming home I saw him, he was also coming home and I told him "Hey come to us for company" (I was with another friend), but he didn't talk just smiled broadly, I told him again " Come on, won't you come and keep us company ", but alas, again and again only a big wide smile (very charming) and he came home without even saying a word, I was kind of sick, but also funny. And I haven't seen him since that night, because the next day he left for the city where he studies. So I'll wait until the next time he comes home to see him, even for a second. And this is my story I tried briefly, briefly. So if you can ... my question to you is ... If you can give me some advice on how to move things, for example, to go out somewhere together, a walk, coffee or whatever. Give me advice on what to do so that something happens between us, because I really like this boy. Thank you in advance!!! And this is my story I tried briefly, briefly. So if you can ... my question to you is ... If you can give me some advice on how to move things, to go out somewhere, for example, a walk, coffee or whatever. Give me advice on what to do so that something happens between us, because I really like this boy. Thank you in advance!!! And this is my story I tried briefly, briefly. So if you can ... my question to you is ... If you can give me some advice on how to move things, to go out somewhere, for example, a walk, coffee or whatever. Give me advice on what to do so that something happens between us, because I really like this boy. Thank you in advance!!!