I am 32 years old and I have a son who is already 12. My husband and I have a lot of differences in thinking and in general in our ideas about life. I can't say that during all these years, and 5 more years as boyfriends, everything was rosy. There were many moments of bitterness and disappointment, but I swallowed and kept pulling the car. I am not referring to infidelities that I doubted, but I did not reveal. I had focused on the family, the child, the apartments, the cars, and so on. In general, I am an independent woman or at least I try to be like that, quite ambitious and always pursuing some goals in my life. I have always worked in several places and with a lot of work I have achieved everything I want. And my husband, who is the complete opposite of me - he was just a part of my life. Strange as it may sound, I never cheated on him. Or at least I didn't have the courage to do it. Maybe because I am too direct and open person and I hold on to such relationships with others. Nothing would hurt me like a lie. Otherwise, I dare say that I am a very liked and courted woman. I'm not saying I don't like it because it fills me with confidence and energy. But only up to there. And our relationship in bed - they are not commendable. Here, perhaps, the blame lies with me, without knowing the root cause. He is always ready to have sex, anywhere, anytime, as long as I don't. Maybe with him. I do not know. Every time, instead of fantasies about stormy sex, I fall for similar scenes in which he participates, but with other women. Often in moments of serious crisis in our relationship, I have told myself that I will do it with someone else. I got to violent flirtations and stopped there. I just can not. Maybe I'm thinking too much, instead of indulging in my heart, my momentary desires and urges. Now, for the first time in my family life, I am facing a dilemma. I soon officially met a man who, like me, is also from Burgas. Even after our first meeting, he started looking for opportunities to hear and see each other. We never talked about our personal lives. He knows I have a big son, and I learned that he is married and has 2 children. There is an incredible attraction between us. For the first time in my conscious life, I experience something like this - I am obsessed with thoughts about it, waiting for a call and quite distracted. I'm ready to have sex with him without expecting anything. But I don't know what to do. Maybe I lack courage, maybe I'm not sure what I want, or rather the subsequent outcome of the situation.
1 mamakid answered
How can you ruin your family .. You have a child of 12. Think about him and not about you. Once you married him, she must have had a thrill ... Think if your parents had divorced when you were 12. The worst age. It doesn't occur to children (drugs, cigarettes, sex ..., suicides). You will ruin your family .. :)