They hurt me so much that I shut myself in. Friends, boys, loss of a loved one ... in general I am hurt by all this and I am already afraid. I'm afraid to fall in love, I'm afraid to be attached to someone. I don't want to get close to a person again, make me feel important to him, and then leave me. I do not want. The situation is that I am now in love with my friend, the fact that he calls me "fr" annoys me. But on the other hand, I tell myself that it's better so that there is nothing more between us and so that it doesn't hurt me. When I see him and I'm not the same anymore, I'm supposed to be myself, but something worries me. When he smiles at me, I don't know where I am. I say to myself, "You're not going to give up just because he's smiling at you. Recover and be strong ... you know what's next ..." and then I feel idiotic. Do you understand me? I want it and it makes me angry, that he accepts me as a friend, and I'm somewhat glad that he doesn't hurt me. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't like to talk about my feelings, so I'm sharing here. Please advice, I'm scared!
1 noshaveanna1 answered
what is your relationship with your friend, how often do you see each other? years? why don't you want him to know about your feelings ...? .. maybe he also thinks that you accept him as a friend and nothing more .. and precisely because of that to do nothing ... so as not to lose you ... give a little more extensive explanation of the situation ...