I have known a boy for years, we were in the same school together, and he is one year younger than me. Once we started studying in high school, it all started. He started writing to me on Facebook, if I want to go out with him, to go for a walk, to talk ... I flatly refused him because I had a friend whom I cared for and loved, I didn't think it was right, why we were in such an age at which,, We wanted to try out everything "". I continued to refuse him after every invitation to go out, until one day I was with my cousin who, he told me. Why not go out more people more fun, more interesting to talk about what was before, now how we look at things and life .. Well, how to look and I answered so we were 16/17 years old still nothing we had seen, but I agreed to go out in spite of everything. And it all started from that moment.
The three of us started dating for several months in a row. When one day he told me, why don't we just go out, I agreed unknown, why until recently I was even against going out with this man, and now what happened to me ...? It got under my skin, just ... We went out for years, as friends. He called me when I was even with my friend ... We grew up and each of us took the path of life that we had to see up close. He decided to study in Sofia and I would stay in the city and work. I didn't think to follow at all for now. He had a car and came every Saturday and Sunday. That meant I had to be on my first shift to be able to see him. I continued to have a long-term relationship. I started going out, late at night to drive around the city to talk .. One day he invited me to them, I went watching a movie, smoking, talking ... And at one point he said, 'I've been wanting to be with you for a long time, let's do it now ??? I was shocked, I got up, took my things and left without him and called him at all for a while .. I was angry with him and kept to my relationship .. He called me and apologized for what he said, he was just sorry for his words really . I kept going out with him. He started calling me every day at exactly 12 noon for months. I went out in the evening, I came home late. He knew I loved the autumn rain, and one night we went out again. We rode as usual and it rained, as I like. He stopped in an alley and said if you want us to sit in the back of the car, to talk, I told him that in front we can talk not only in the back. He asked me only for a moment. When we sat in the back, he started talking sweetly, making me laugh, he started tickling me. And the outside was unique, we just opened the windows slightly to listen to the rain. He started kissing me, and I didn't know what was going on ... I just couldn't move, I was shocked. Various thoughts began to come to my mind ...
What is he doing, is he crazy ?? What's wrong with him ?? Why does he do it, is that why he spends so much time with me at all ?? While I was thinking these things, it was so good for me that I even put my thoughts aside and gave myself over to the moment ... It was just Unique, so nice that I didn't want to stop this moment ... The next day I realized what kind of person I am, how I can to do such things, given that I have a friend, does he deserve it .. Infidelity, lie ..? But despite everything, we didn't stop seeing each other and having good sex, and I carried my waist and the pain for my friend, but this one just made me feel really good. A year later, I was accepted to a university. I told him, he was happy. My friend was against studying. I kept going out and seeing the second boy. I started to be jealous of him, I felt dependent and needed him, I wanted to be together all the time, I felt good with him .. By the month I was late, I felt sick .. Now what will I say to my friend if I am pregnant ?? He knows we protect ourselves. I immediately called the other and told him, he said take a test and we will decide what to do together I told him (I definitely remove it and you leave my life). He kept calling me and said if I wanted to, he would give me money for an abortion and we wouldn't see each other again. I took a test, miraculously it was negative .. I was happy and I said to myself God is with me this time no matter how wrong I am .. I told him accordingly that I was pregnant to see what his reaction would be, he asked me, what about the baby ??
And then I replied that the baby was gone, that I had an abortion ... It seems to him that he really believed me. Until one day he wanted us to go out and tell me something. Accordingly, I went out with him and he said that he knew that there was nothing true in what I told him was that he was watching over me all the time. Why am I lying to him. I saw that there was no bullshit in front of me and I confessed to him that I had lied to him on purpose. He hugged me and said, I forgive you well, but he is doing more. I went out with one and then with the other ... When I was in the village he even came there. One night just before his birthday he came to me for a few hours ... I was thinking, is this person just for sex with me or just has feelings. I went straight and asked him directly when he replied that he liked me, as a person, I was kind and good, but not expecting him to be able to give me anything but sex made me dumb. Was I so deluded, to lie to my friend with this .. I wanted this to be a dream .. We stopped going out, to see each other for a long time .. Months passed and he looked for me again, we saw each other, the same movie again. SEX, talking .. And nothing else ... Time passed and I decided that this person should get rid of both my life and my head ..
I decided to take on serious things, and now that I am determined to have a child , this person has no place in my life, I am grateful only for giving me a valuable lesson for the future, how a person should respect and hold the person next to him. Also, I'm not small anymore and things like that don't satisfy me. Life is not based only on Sex, it is not so simple .. Men come and go. Dear young girls, my advice is, be with the person next to you, if you love him, don't do nonsense, if everything is gone, just don't be fooled. Be an example, be proud of yourself. Everyone makes mistakes, but it is important to realize in time.
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Just sex? That you had a full relationship. You were friends, you slept together, you had fun and you spent hours talking. The boy was inclined to forgive your lies, to swallow that you were cheating. It wasn't just sex, it was love on his part, you also had more serious feelings, but you got scared. Such things happen because people refuse to make sense of their feelings in time and then continue to delude themselves to make it easier for them. What really happened? You loved this boy, you slept with him, you went out often, in the end there was a risk that he would get more serious and you ran away, continuing with that relationship that you just dragged her in the meantime. If she had cheated once, I would not have judged your youth. If she had left her boyfriend to experience the thrill, I would have found a drop of dignity and respected courage. You just kept the tame while chasing the wild, not realizing that it was the wild that was safe. For years, someone has followed you, and you think it was all about sex ... guess what, it wasn't just sex, you were scared.