Hello! I'm tiny and probably a lot of things aren't clear to me yet, but at least I already know what I want. Except I don't know how to do it. I am one of those few people left, easily hurt, never hating. Here is what happened: I met a man, for a negative time he turned my head beyond recognition. In the beginning, everything was magical, it surrounded me with attention, small gestures and looks ... too good to be true. I was sure it was happening to him, so casually and truly, there was no way it was a delusion. Then a stupid misunderstanding happened and everything fell apart. Since then, the more desperately I try to bring him back, the colder he gets. He behaves as he pleases: one day he looks for me and is kind, the next he is indifferent, the third he is friendly, the fourth he is cruel, and so on every day. These moods of his just crush me. He never gives me a clear answer as to what exactly he feels for me. Lately the glass has been overflowing. I became like a rag he is terribly indifferent to when he's not having fun, and then I forget and give him my attention when he looks for me again. The bad thing is that I experience these things incredibly painfully. I keep thinking that there will come a time when my heart will be so broken that I will not want to see it again. But it doesn't happen! No matter what he does, no matter what he says, I don't hate even for a moment. How I want to stop feeling any feelings, to become cold and indifferent. If my heart stops feeling, the pain will stop. I will be able to stand up and turn my back on him. I will put an end to this madness. It's a pity, but in this life you have to be a BITCH to succeed. I want to kill my heart, to throw away all the tremors, so that I can finally be happy. If I lose my ability to feel, neither he nor anyone else will be able to hurt him more.
1 lilbthebasedgod answered
I tell you from your story how hurt you are