A few years ago I went to study at a university in another country. There I met someone I still can't forget. When our eyes first met, I saw a golden light and for the first time I felt whole. Definitely loved. I knew I had always hoped to meet him. When he hugged me, I could feel a hormone cocktail coming out of my head and flooding my whole body. I felt like I was close to something eternal. Brilliant. But not only that, he is the first person I really trust. We were like best friends. Me and him against the world. Unfortunately, out of fear, I was the one who did not allow things to develop and I do not stop regretting it. It's been a long time, and I'm still comparing everyone to him. And he doesn't want to see me. I do not know what to do.
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It has a whole phrase about this phenomenon "The one who got away". My friend told me a long, long time ago that I was "the boy who never was" and that's how I stayed. Years have passed since then ... but it remains. Brother.