Let me tell you .. I have noticed that there are people who forget someone a little easier, but there are also sensitive people for whom forgetting is a difficult job. I am sensitive and that does not make me less of a man than the others. It's just that when I fall in love, I fall in love ... To go straight to the problem. It's been 1 year since we broke up with a girl. I am aware that he is not the man for me and that we had no future together, but he is constantly in my thoughts. We broke up in a nasty way and I felt cheated on her part. He started to play tricks on me and act like a fool at one point and I just stopped everything. Most likely at the moment she doesn't think about me at all ... Or she thinks and doesn't have the courage to call me. The thing is, I both want to call and I know that even if he does, nothing will happen. Because it has already made me suffer. The malice that was uncharacteristic of me began to arise, and somehow I couldn't get it out of me. I started thinking only bad things about her to forget her, but it didn't work. The thing is, I can't get on with another girl. It's like once you see such great suffering. It's as if you see it once and you're more cautious about it. I just don't want to ever experience that nasty feeling of separation again. I don't start any relationships anymore because I'm scared. No matter how much I tell myself. Come on, start anew tomorrow, start everything anew, new girl, etc. I'm starting to date someone and I can't seem to enjoy what's going on. I can't be natural. When I was a teenager with my first boyfriend, things happened so naturally, with great desire. And now that we've grown up it's terribly difficult .... Just some fears, barriers .... I have a feeling that life is over. I feel like I was only naturally happy when I was a teenager. The more you get burned by life, the more you close yourself in and the more meaningless everything becomes.