You are only 20 years old. Obviously you have no self-confidence, no experience. You haven't written anything about your family - do they support you, are your parents, brother, sister interested in you? My advice to you is to be brave, get out of the hole you pushed yourself into. Because the truth is that no one cares how you feel, what you feel - I'm talking about acquaintances, classmates, friends .... Do not think that only you feel that way there are many people who feel lonely and bad .. .. If you do not have money - work abroad, study. Do something. You look numb to me. Calm down, first. If he is afraid of rejection, or not to hurt you, insult. Calm down, everyone has been rejected, abandoned, neglected in some form. Do not think that everyone will like you or will not like you - some people - yes, others - no.
1. Learn to communicate with people - start by smiling at them, greeting them, ask them something short - like "how are you?". It always has to start somewhere. Don't stand like a stump, relax, they won't eat you. Try! These people who do not communicate with other people do not achieve much in their lives - because, at least, there is nowhere to get live information about something, to hear different opinions about something that interests them, to exchange experiences, thoughts.
2. If you blush and are ashamed to talk to a girl or people in general - rehearse in front of the mirror, look friendly, pleasant expression, smile, words clear, understandable, repeat, as if learning a role, live a little, wake up! Life is courage in front of you !!
3. You must fit somewhere among people - for example, to study, fellow students,. If you don't want to work but sign up somewhere according to your interests - sports, fitness / there are a lot of boys, girls /, sports-football, basketball, volleyball, etc. in the hall, for example, dancing, for example, an interest club - car service, equipment, computers, painting, music, cinema, something you like, but make sure you have your peers. When they visit what you will have similar topics and things that interest you, then immediately talk - what do you think this computer, this program, this music how is it?
4. When a person closes, he seems to be buried alive! Do not!!! Live; because you are only 20!
5. You must make an effort in this direction. Nothing happens at once, don't give up even a little progress.
6. Believe in yourself and you will succeed! Gain a more confident look, radiate confidence! Rehearse it in front of the mirror! But not arrogance. I also have an 18-year-old boy, he is 2 years younger than you. And he was insecure, more shy. But over time, that is likely to change. now the problem is that he has a lot of friends and he doesn't have time to study, and he talks a lot.
Sign up if there is an opportunity in a club - theatrical, debates - to speak, defend an opinion, it is useful. I wish you success !!! Start somewhere and share! We will support you! You are not alone!!! You can, you'll see! Be sure to write !!! I want to know what you're doing.
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Tell me what environment you live in, what is your family, deprivation or others? What food do you eat, is it poor in vitamins and minerals! What kind of home do you live in, is it close to a power line or a factory?