Loneliness Eats Me Up

The Story

Hello! I am 21 years old and I have never had a serious relationship. I have a problem with intimacy, both emotional and physical. I don't want to sound narcissistic, but I'm attractive and supportive. Men are often interested in me, but even if I like someone, I can't relax. I've never dated more than 2-3 people, not because I wanted to, but because I couldn't think of an excuse not to go. Meetings make me feel like I'm going to have a panic attack, I get nervous and I want to leave as soon as possible. This unpleasant feeling made me start isolating myself and avoiding meeting opportunities, not to mention commitment. For a moment I was almost deluded that a person can live fully and alone, but this is not the case. Sometimes the only thing I want is a warm hug and closeness to someone, but it seems to me, everything is more achievable than that ... and I don't know what to do. I have never touched a man in my life except for my first kiss which happened by force and then I did not repeat. I must be very wrong, but please don't judge me. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Last Updated
September 05, 2020
Author:
piguy0314

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