Let Me Tell You My Grief

The Story

Hello. I'm 22 years old and I'm not doing well with women. I think I'm ugly and that's why my self-esteem is low. They say that things don't work out for me because of my self-esteem. I am also too modest and good (people's opinion). Why do I think I'm ugly Because every girl I tried told me that I wasn't her type or that they didn't want a relationship at the moment and in a few days they have a new boyfriend. I also think I'm ugly because they told me to. "Every girl wanted a nice man to be ashamed of when they went out" (her opinion). Anyway ... I've had boyfriends and I don't get along with any of them, and my longest relationship was two months of agony. In the first week, everything was flowers and roses, but then it changed. In the end, I realized that she was breaking me all the time and I, the fool in love, could not forget her for three years. I tried to forget her with other girls, but it still didn't work. Then I lowered the bar a bit and caught up with sex. Ok, but I'm still not happy. I still haven't had a little more serious relationship that we both care about. Maybe because I live back in time. I'm that type of guy, romantic with gifts and good manners. Such boys are clearly out of fashion. I tried to pretend to be bad with a girl but it didn't work out, it's not for me. So, after a lifetime of frustration, I stopped thinking about it. I drive it day after day. Now I thought of a few more facts about me. I live abroad. Half a year here and the other half in Bulgaria. Here I met the perfect girl. At my age, beautiful, smart, working and helping my family, she is not vain and impressed me the most with the different way of thinking of all the other girls I know. Don't think she's congested because she goes to discos every week and has fun to the max. She paid attention to me, but because of my low self-esteem I did not dare to do anything. I went to Bulgaria and when I came back here it already started to change after someone made fun of it. It's like everyone else now, and I wonder if the bird landed on my shoulder (as they say).

Last Updated
October 14, 2020
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