Let Me Alone

Hello, since I have no one to share with, I decided here so anonymously, so it's about the greatest love in my life after about three years of Skype Facebook connections and so on, our dream to get together came true, so the dilemma is the following to such an extent that she abandoned me, under the pretext of writing with others but I only have eyes for her expecting a baby she is pregnant in the 2nd month, went ten days ago to her sister because she came abroad and so tortured for ten days when we left, I was at work, I came back, I traveled by train, I traveled by train, and so it was decided for the reason that I was paranoid in my head that I have others and she can't understand that such love meets once in her life, I tried to look for her. I'm blocked by absolutely any app doesn't pick me up,on top of that their are against me 1001% i get threats from dad and even though we have been living together for almost 6 months and expecting the fruit of our love, we couldn't even hug or kiss for the last of absolutely nothing she did something that maybe it is irreparable now, to leave the fact that when we stocked up she cheated on me and so on I wonder what to do for 5 days she did not eat alone - not to be my first girl, despite all the wounds she did to me she ruined me, but after all, I can't imagine life without her, and I know she can go abroad or kill my innocent creature, I know there are people worse than me I wanted to go as a man in them to get her but once my parents play a factor, once she gives in to manipulations I don't think it makes sense, I even realized that even if I went to talk they would kick me out of them like a dog,I just never expected such malice from people you helped or lived with, I became literally nothing to complain about, I just needed to pour out my grief, I saved somewhere 90% details and greetings to everyone from the hospital, my blood dropped and I fainted I'm sorry about her, if one day you read this, know that I love you and I will always love you