Hello, I am a 30 year old woman! A lot of things have been happening in my life lately and various questions are popping into my head, but I don't think even my best friend would understand what I'm talking about. From a young mother my father tied both ends barely without help from anyone, my mother always tried to feed us, dress us and send us to school! But family warmth and coziness have always been lacking, now I barely realize it, because I got married and my husband's family is radically different, they laugh, talk, watch movies, go out and enjoy life according to their financial status, which is not large. My mother has always said that she did not marry for love. The problem is that I realize how all my life until now my mother has been doing me bear services and she wanted to command me and do what she finds good, I think I'm always naive, stupid and people always want to use me, how someone envies me (which I did not understand), literally teases me how I dress and make up to this day. She helped me financially, but always with insinuation and hostility, which borders on too much nervousness and over-excited speech. Beyond everything, there are no relatives, those who do not know her closely say that she is very good, everyone who meets her does not communicate with her, she just likes to slander people, she has almost no personal life and most of all she is hostile to everything and everyone. She didn't approve of my husband because he was poor, clumsy and didn't love me, I had a university degree and he didn't (for her love is measured in men's finances) how I couldn't achieve anything in life he even tried to separate us in every way, but failed! I don't want to offend her, nor do I. and I'm wrong but deep in my heart I find that I feel nothing, neither love nor hate, I just want them to be alive and healthy! One hand my mother called me a rag and a scoundrel in front of my husband when we were boyfriends and she did a bunch of other things exposing me, and even he told me that it was the first time he saw such a family of mine and was literally amazed at the lack of any humanity. !! I beg for. opinion did I make a mistake?